196 God’s Heart Has Not Been Comforted
Having tasted all the bitterness of corruptions, I loathe and abhor Satan all the more.
Frustrations and failures have taught me, so I see clearly the true self of the corrupt me,
And know how man should live. Having experienced tribulations, sufferings, and refinings,
I see that it is not easy for God to work to save man; I can no longer fool or deceive God.
God has suffered so much, but He still has not gained man’s love now.
My conscience is reproaching me, and it arouses me to requite God’s grace.
I cannot fall away or trample myself anymore; how could I let my years of painstaking care flow away!
How could I easily give in to failure!
The work has come to the final scene, yet I see that I have been transformed little in my disposition.
Can it be brought before God to be tested? Can it make God have trust in me?
I don’t care whether to receive blessings or suffer adversities, as long as I can comfort God’s heart in the end.
I will live for God to requite Him, and I should make Him have enjoyment today.
If I can satisfy God’s heart, I will feel energetic to praise Him on earth.
If I really offend God, I will have no face to see Him alive.
I will strive hard not to fail God; since I face justice I should be faithful to God.
Only if I have the truth will I be worthy to be called a man.