After I followed the work of Almighty God, I had been persecuted by my family. Every time I came home from a meeting or from performing my duty in God’s family, my wife would hurl abuse at me; sometimes she even did not allow me to enter the house or to have the meal. At each time like this, I earnestly prayed to God, beseeching God to give me faith and strength. Just in this way, relying on the guidance of God, I never flinched but followed God with even closer steps. In my heart, however, I still hoped that one day I could live a harmonious and easy life without persecution.
Last Spring Festival, I went back home from another place where I performed my duty. To my surprise, my family’s attitude toward me got a 180-degree change. They all said that they would no longer oppose my believing in God. Our family members were together talking and laughing, spending a few contented and happy days that we had never had for years. From then on, I was no longer restrained by my family and was free to come out and go back. So, whenever I had time I wanted to go home to enjoy the family happiness.
When the autumn harvest came, though I was very busy with the work of God’s family, I still stubbornly spared myself some time to go home. I only wanted to do as much farm work as I could to show them that I still cared for the family though I was often away from home. As a consequence of such busyness, I had no time to eat and drink the word of God, and I also did not want to pray.
One evening, I even had such a thought: Being like this, isn’t it quite good to live a harmonious life with my family? Why should I stir the family into a tempest as I did before? When I thought this way, I became darkened within all at once, only feeling that my heart was empty and with nothing left. I completely fell into satan’s temptation.
In the next few days, I was greatly suppressed in spirit and always got tight in heart, feeling that I was very far away from God. My suffering was beyond words. I realized my state was wrong, but I had no strength to turn it around.
Having no choice, I had to come before God to seek: “O God! Now I have fallen into a dangerous state. But I don’t know what causes this, and I am unable to extricate myself out of it. May you inspire and guide me and give me strength.” Then, God’s words inspired me: “If people’s life is easy and comfortable without hard circumstances, they could hardly go forward in their experience. In easy and comfortable circumstances people are prone to degenerate. Adverse circumstances can cause you to pray intensely and thus you dare not leave God. Their life being increasingly easy and boring, people feel it is meaningless to be living, and they think it would be better to die. Man’s flesh is just so corrupt; only undergoing trials is beneficial to man.”
These words of God woke me up suddenly. Yes! In the past, when I faced my family’s rejection and persecution, I never dared to be far away from God; I prayed to God and relied on God in everything, feeling that I was very close to God. Although my flesh suffered a little, I could gain faith and strength from God; moreover, I increasingly felt God’s kindness and loveliness and that my life was also meaningful and valuable. Now my circumstance becomes easy and comfortable and my family is in harmony, but I think of my family and my flesh at all times, getting more and more distant from God and becoming more and more fallen, and I have completely sunk into satan’s temptation and even have a thought of forsaking God. If God’s silent chastisement had not come upon me, I would still let sins spread, indulging the flesh and enjoying the pleasures of sins, and would be completely swallowed up by satan while I was still numb and not aware of that. I’m in so great a danger!
O God, thank you for inspiring and guiding me and so I’ve realized that I could undergo the suffering and refining today and this is your greatest keeping and salvation for me; even more, it is your best blessing and truest love for me. Because my flesh has been corrupted too deeply, easy circumstances will only make me dissipate and degenerate and even forsake you. O God! I will no longer seek after an easy and comfortable life. I will no longer dwell in my corrupt flesh to be fooled by satan. I am willing to accept your chastisement and judgment, suffering and refining, and pursue the truth to live out a meaningful life. No matter how hard and difficult the circumstances are, I will submit to them and accept them. For I have experienced that an easy and comfortable life can only make me degenerate and only suffering and trials are truly beneficial to my life.
Linyi City, Shandong Province