Once at a host home, a sister asked me a question. She said, “Why did I fail to see that God suffers?” Thank God that he gave me an inspiration at that time, and I said: “We failed to see that God suffers and this doesn’t mean that God hasn’t suffered. God is the Creator, supreme and dignified; and he is holy, without a trace of filthiness. To save mankind and love mankind, however, God has descended from the highest place to the lowest place and has been incarnated among us who are most corrupt and filthiest people. To God, isn’t this the greatest suffering? Who can experience such suffering? Every word God speaks is the truth and the life, and is salvation to man, yet man does not accept it and even refuses the arrival of God. Isn’t this the suffering God undergoes? …”
Before I went to bed that night, I thought about the subject of the daytime fellowship and thought about God’s work. I came to see that God had suffered so much. God came to the earth from heaven taking on an image of a created being; he works practically and tastes the joys and sorrows of the world personally. He has borne all the sufferings of the world and the torments of illnesses in man’s stead, in order to remove mankind’s future sufferings. God also undergoes all kinds of persecutions from the great red dragon, having no place to lay his head. God’s flesh is innocent and holy and should not have to endure these sufferings. But to save us who are corrupt mankind, God has borne all this silently and never complains about the miseries and shabbiness of the world. God tests man and refines man, and his purpose is to save man and purify man. But man misunderstands God, causing God to suffer the pain of being misunderstood. When God blesses man, man is greatly pleased; when God makes requirements of man, man departs from God, causing God to suffer the pain of being deserted. All God does for man is love and salvation, but man rejects, slanders, and persecutes God. Those who believe in God reject God and shut the door on God. Those who are following God do not treasure the word of life expressed by God; and when they perform some duty, they take every possible chance to make a deal with God. God has suffered too much…. O God! You have suffered a great deal in order to save us, but you’ve never uttered any complaints. You only endure silently, continuing your work among us and dedicating your all to us. O God! Today I only perform my duty away from home, yet I think that I’ve suffered a lot. I am really blind and devoid of reason. Today I come out to work and I’m just performing my duty as a created being. If it were not for your salvation, I would be one to be destroyed. How can I compare with you, the Creator, in undergoing sufferings? O God, thank you for inspiring me, and thank you that you have made me realize that the sufferings you have experienced are too great and all that you do for mankind is your truest love and your selfless dedication. Today I undergo sufferings simply due to my fear of having no good destination, and due to my own corruptions and disobedience; they are the pains of refining and trying I suffered in order to be purified. All this is for myself.
O God, thank you for your inspiration. I will take it as my driving force and devote my lifetime energies to the gospel work, so as to comfort your heart.
Nanjing City, Jiangsu Province