I am a very fragile and emotional person. Although I perform my duty away from home, I am concerned about my parents at home. During the previous period, I particularly missed them. I always thought that they had been worn out from toiling for me and for the family, and that they had always given me encouragement and care and comfort from my childhood to now when I performed my duty away from home. Whenever I thought that they had so much and so tiring farm work to do at home and also had duties to perform in God’s family, I felt I owed them too much, and was very passive in my heart. I always wanted to go home and help them do some farm work to pay the debt of gratitude for their love and care. To my mind, it was my parents who had given me everything and given me my fleshly life.
When I regarded my parents as the source of my life, the newest words of the Almighty God came to me. God says: “God created this world and brings into the world man, the living being who has the life given by God. Thus man has parents and relatives and is no longer lonely. From the moment man sees this physical world, he is destined to live in God’s ordination. It is God’s breath of life that supports every living being to ‘grow up.’ In this course, no one feels that he is living and ‘growing up’ under God’s care, but on the contrary he thinks that he is brought up by his parents’ care….” After reading God’s words, I came to understand that my former knowledge was wrong, for my life was given by God, not by my parents. The life of each of us comes from God, and man’s flesh itself has no life. It was predestined by God that I have parents and relatives today; it was God who gave me such a family. I have no direct relation with my parents. It is God who has been nourishing every living being among all things. It is God’s breath of life that has supported me to grow up. And it is God who has given me my parents and relatives. However, I attributed all these given by God to my parents. I was really absurd, ridiculous, and conscienceless! Only then did I truly realize that the support of my living is not my parents or relatives, but the only true almighty God. Aren’t my parents also under God’s care and keeping? Can their love for me surpass God’s love for me? I do not owe my parents anything. Instead, I owe God too much. God is the source of my life. Thank God that his words have corrected my wrong viewpoint. I am no longer restricted by the “debt of gratitude for my parents’ love and care,” for I have known that my everything comes from the only true almighty God.
Qingzhou City, Shandong Province