God Made Me See Clearly There Is No True Affection in the World
When I read these words of God “What do husbands love their wives for? What do wives love their husbands for? What do children honor their parents for? What do parents love their children for? What are their intents for? Aren’t they for fulfilling their own intentions and selfish desires?,” I did not believe they were true. I always thought: There is no true affection between me and people who are neither relatives nor friends to me. Could there be no love between me and my husband, children, and parents? Therefore, I loved my family very much all along, deeming them the ones dearest and nearest to me. However, in the circumstances God arranged for me, I came to realize that God’s words are indeed the truth and the fact.
After my whole family knew I had believed in the Almighty God, they each seemed to become a different person and fully exposed their ferocious features. My elder son said, “Mom, do you want my brother and me or God? If you believe in God, you are not my mom! I’ll disown you!” My mother said, “If you continue to believe in God, you are no daughter of mine!” My husband said, “If you go on believing in God, I will divorce you. I won’t live with you!” Later, whatever happened in the family, even when our children fell ill, my husband heaped the blame on me. In the face of their threats and persecutions, I was stunned and shocked: Are these my child whom I have been taking good care of, my husband whom I have regarded as my second self in my life, and my mother who has taken me as the apple of her eye? Is this the result I’ve gotten by working hard for this family day and night? Then, I remembered God’s words: “What do husbands love their wives for? What do wives love their husbands for? What do children honor their parents for? What do parents love their children for? What are their intents for? Aren’t they for fulfilling their own intentions and selfish desires?” I suddenly woke up: Yes. My parents, husband, and children were kind to me before; wasn’t that only because I served them wholeheartedly and satisfied them in fleshly enjoyment? When their flesh received my meticulous care, they gave me a smile, admitting that I was a member of this family. But once I made a choice of my own to do something I like, they all exposed their true self. Each of them glared at me and wished to drive me out of the home. Is this the true affection that I have been pursuing and hoping to get? Weren’t they taking advantage of me? How foolish I was! I pursued this false thing joyfully and tirelessly, but I put behind me the truest love in the world—God’s love and true affection for me, and cast aside so many precious truths God bestowed on me for saving me. Was I not too blind and ignorant? At this time, I deeply felt that there is no true affection in the world. Then, I thought of God. In order to save us, God has been incarnated and has endured great humiliations and sufferings. Regardless of how I disobey, resist, misunderstand, or hurt God, God does not remember any transgression of mine and still takes pains and expends his all to save me. What would be truer and more earnest than this affection in the world? I cannot remain indifferent anymore. I will choose anew and let God’s sorrowful heart enjoy a tiny bit of comfort from my little repayment in the future.
Kaifeng City, Henan Province