Recently I cooperated in checking a case of punishment. I had made many trips, and I felt that I had got enough information for the case. I didn’t expect that the leader phoned me again and asked me to immediately go to the brother’s home to check the situation of that time once more. I really did not want to go, but I dared not refuse. So, I went there unwillingly.
In the checking, several points the brother talked about were different from the previous ones. I thought: If I write a report according to what the brother tells me now and deny the former one, then what opinions will the leader have of me? No, no matter whether what I wrote is true or not, I will not make things hard for myself. The more changes, the more trouble; and I have to start it all over again. It is better to hand in the previous one. At the moment, God inspired me and I remembered the principle and requirement from above: All written materials must be accurate and true without any falsehoods. However, I ignored the guidance of the Holy Spirit and went my own way stiff-necked and handed in the old material.
Two days later, the leader asked me: “Did you find any new problems in your checking this time? Is the material accurate and true?” I replied unhesitatingly, “The material is true and no alteration is made. It is all what he himself said. It’s definitely true.” The leader continued: “Dare you guarantee that?” Though the leader was so serious about this matter, I still persisted in my error and continued to practice deception. After the leader left, I felt a little uneasy within. But then I thought: Since the material has been handed in, why should I cause myself more trouble? Better be light-hearted!
Right after getting up the next day, I felt an unbearable pain in my mouth. Taking a careful look under the tongue, I found there were five ulcers of different sizes on the insides of my mouth. My tongue was too swollen to move. If any ulcer was carelessly touched, I would feel scorching pain as if stung by a hornet. However, I did not examine myself in spirit, and thought that I just suffered from excessive internal heat and would be all right after taking some medicine. I did not expect that after taking medicine for three days, I did not get any better.
Only then did I realize that it was God’s discipline coming upon me. I hurriedly came before God to pray and seek. God’s words suddenly rang in my ears: “I am the God who searches hearts and minds. Don’t act one way to others’ faces and another behind their backs. I see your doings one by one clearly. You can deceive man, but cannot deceive me. I have seen all of them clearly. You still want to hide them; that is impossible. All is in my hand.” “If you really want to oppose me…, I will make you a person who has a rotten mouth. …”
God’s words full of wrath made me tremble with fear. I hurriedly knelt down and confessed to God: “O God, I knew clearly that the case of punishment involves your name and the testimony for you and must be accurate and true; otherwise, it not only would not be a testimony for you, but it would give satan something to shame your name. However, I knew the truth of the fact but did not report it as it was. Even when the leader asked me about it time and time again, I still blatantly practiced deception, unaware that you were searching everything. I could deceive people but could not escape the searching of your Spirit. Today, you have my mouth rotten and this is precisely the expression of your righteous nature, and it is also the retribution I deserve. If you had not done so, I, a numb person, would still persist in my error. O God, I will never again practice deception because of fearing to take trouble and lose my face. Now I’ll say the true fact.”
So, I dared not hesitate anymore. I immediately phoned the leader and exposed my crafty self, and I rewrote the material according to the fact. Soon, I recovered from the ulcers.
This experience caused me to taste God’s nature that is not allowed to be offended by man, and to have a little knowledge that God’s Spirit searches everything. From now on, I am willing to accept the searching of God’s Spirit in everything, pursue to be an honest person, and perform my duty honestly and conscientiously, so as to comfort God’s heart.
Nanyang City, Henan Province