In April 2004, a work arrangement came, which required all believers to enter into Three Hundred Questions & Answers on the Truth in Christ’s Word. The arrangement says: “These three hundred pieces of truths are the fundamental truths that the whole church must understand and enter into. All the churches must practice according to this…. It is better to fellowship about one subject at one meeting….” At that time I thought: One person has one case. Will it do to just answer one question at one meeting? We should find several more pieces of God’s word and then we can completely solve their problems. So, I did not take the work arrangement seriously at all. When my assistants and I went to the churches, we never answered the questions, and as usual we just selected a piece of God’s word to read and fellowship and then it was over. At that time, I thought it was quite good to do so and even felt that I was more burdened for the work than before, until…
One day, one of my assistants and I went to a church. When we cycled halfway we both fell down to the cement ground at the same time. My trousers got torn; my arm had a deep and big cut that kept bleeding, and my hands could hardly move. My assistant’s leg was also injured. Then I looked around and saw that on my left side there was a big ditch more than 3 meters deep, and on my right was a reservoir. How dangerous! O God, what’s the matter? I felt my state were quite good in this period. How could…? But then I thought: No, there must be something wrong with me. God will never do anything wrong! When we just returned to the host home, the other assistant also came back, and she said: “Today my leg was injured with a fall and the bone was hurt.” My heart got nervous all at once: It never occurred before that a small-district leader and her two assistants were disciplined by God at the same time. If it had not involved God’s work, God’s name, and God’s testimony, God would not have disciplined us this way. Then, I immediately returned to God and seriously examined myself: In what mater had I resisted and offended God?
As I recalled my service of that period, God inspired me: “Secondly, remember: Never act in a “new” way or according to your own will or according to your own preferences. Have a heart fearing God and do the work strictly according to the work arrangements. … If after you serve for some time, you become audacious, do not care even when you act according to your own will, become careless, and act daringly, then you will be in danger.” “If people who serve God follow their disposition and act according to their own will, they are in danger of being eliminated at any time. If people serve God by the experience they have summed up over many years …such people will surely fall before God….”
At that moment, I suddenly woke up and realized that I was really too arrogant and self-right. I served God but disregarded the work arrangement of God’s family. I dared to break the work arrangement and act in my own way, having hindered the eating and drinking of the brothers and sisters. As a result, they could not keep up with the present work of the Holy Spirit in time and thus their life suffered loss. I was actually establishing my own kingdom and resisting God! What I did had already offended God’s nature. If this had happened in the Age of the Law, I would have long since lost my life. Today, however, God just showed me the heavenly flame yet did not have the heart to burn me; he still has given me a chance to repent and make a fresh start. This is already God’s great tolerance and patience to me.
Having thought of this, I fell down with remorse before God: “O Almighty God! Thank you that your discipline has timely come to me and made me wake up from my arrogance and self-rightness. Otherwise, I would continue walking my own way and become an antichrist to be punished by you. O God! Through this experience, I have seen that it is you yourself who are at the helm in the work of your family. Your Spirit searches everything, and you never allow anyone to act wildly in your presence, for you are the righteous and holy Almighty God. O God! From now on, I will do the work strictly according to the work arrangements, make more efforts on the transformation of my nature, and pursue to be a person whom you can trust and be satisfied with.”
Jiutai City, Jilin Province