Since I accepted the Almighty God, my husband had always persecuted me. Once, when I came back from preaching the gospel, he stripped me of my clothes and beat me hard. And he said fiercely, “If you continue believing in God, I’ll break your legs!” After a while he went on, “If you give up believing in God, I’ll give you one thousand yuan, for you to go to play mahjong, buy good food and clothes, or do whatever you please.” Hearing these words, I was very distressed and had an unspeakable feeling. “Why must I believe in God? Why did I choose the path of belief in God? …” Complaints welled up in my heart, and tears of grievance streamed down my face in spite of myself. The more I thought about it, the more I felt that I should not continue to believe in God, otherwise I would have no way to live my life. When I was distressed in the extreme, God’s words inspired me: “Satan is at all times devouring man’s knowledge of me and is at all times desperately making its final deathbed struggle. Are you willing to be captured by its schemes at this time? Are you willing to ruin your whole lives at the time the final work is completed?” Then I opened the book of God’s word and found this passage. The word “Are you willing to be captured by its schemes at this time?” woke me up. My heart was suddenly brightened. Only then did I realize that it was the scheme satan performed that my husband would give me money and let me go to play mahjong and would not ask me to do any work. At the same time, I also deeply felt God’s salvation and love for me. Without God’s inspiration, guidance, and enlightenment, I would probably leave God and return fully to the world this time. Having understood God’s intention, I said to my husband boldly, “You can’t make me go to play mahjong. I’m interested in nothing else except believing in God. If you do not let me believe in God, let’s get divorced. After divorce you can’t control me anymore, and I’ll be freed from your beating and abusing and can live a decent life. These two ways are for you to choose. If you do not agree to divorce, you must let me believe in God; if you do not let me believe in God, I’ll divorce you. I can’t live so cowardly anymore!” It was God’s words that had given me the strength. I had no timidity, feeling that God was backing me up. At the moment, my husband shook his head and said, “I thought that if I gave you a beating, you would be afraid and give up your belief in God. To my surprise, your strength and courage become greater. Is your God that good?” “Of course,” I said, “God is so good. God is my life. Without God, I have no life!” Seeing that I had a heart of iron, he said, “I’ll not control you anymore. Do as you will!” From then on, he never persecuted me again.
In this experience, I have realized that as long as one relies on God in all things and draws near to and fellowships with God more in all things, he will receive God’s inspiration and guidance at all times and be kept from falling into satan’s trap. Even more, I have realized that only God’s word is the weapon to defeat satan and also is my ever-present help, my prop, my strong tower, and much more my strength.
Kaifeng City, Henan Province