One day, someone from my parents’ home suddenly came and asked me to go there immediately, saying that they had something important to discuss with me. So I hurried to my parents’ home in a fluster. When I arrived there, I got to know that my elder brother’s illness had reached an advanced stage and was beyond cure. His family had consulted a witch, and the witch said that my brother’s illness was caused by my belief in God and that he would recover if I gave up my belief in God; and they all believed it. At the sight of me, the relatives present all tried to persuade me, saying: “Your brother’s illness has come to such an extent, and you should give up your belief in God for the sake that you two have the same mother. …” Seeing me silent, my brother lying in bed gasped: “If you continue believing in God, I will sever … ties with you, and not acknowledge you as my sister!” When my uncle, who was standing by, saw that I did not express my attitude, said angrily: “Your brother is dying. Can’t you give him such a help? He is your brother in the flesh!” Someone even said: “Get her to swear an oath!”… Hearing these words and looking at my biological brother lying in the sickbed, I felt as if a knife were piercing my heart, tears flowing down continuously. In my heart I was struggling and seething violently: If I say I give up my belief, it means to deny God and reject God before the devil. If I say it in a wise way, they won’t let me go until my brother recovers, and besides, they will ask me to take an oath. It is even less practicable! If I say I’ll keep my belief, so many “relatives” are expecting for me to reply otherwise…. My heart was extremely distressed.
Just when I was struggling in agony and was at a loss what to do, God’s words inspired me: “When you are undergoing trials, whether you are weak or whether you are passive within and whether you do not understand God’s will or whether you are not very clear about the ways of practice, it is normal. But in any case you should have faith in God’s work and should be like Job who did not deny God. … When you cannot understand God’s work, you need to have faith, stand your ground, and stand for God’s testimony.” God’s words cast a light on my heart. Yes! When Job was undergoing the trials, his relatives and friends all advised him to leave God; but Job would rather lose his relatives and family property and undergo physical sufferings than reject God. He firmly believed that the name of Jehovah should be praised. Job’s undergoing the trials was a wager that satan made with God and was a war in the spiritual realm. Isn’t it also a war in the spiritual realm that I encounter this matter today? Isn’t it exactly the time I am needed to hold the testimony? I should imitate Job and hold the testimony. So, I hesitated no more and said to all of my relatives loudly: “I can help you with anything except this. I believe in God determinedly! …”After saying that, I, in tears, ran away from my parents’ home.
Walking on the road and thinking back to the scene a moment before, I still had a lingering fear. If it were not for the timely inspiration of God’s words, perhaps I would have fallen into satan’s trap and denied God, falling under satan’s power and thus being eternally doomed and becoming a plaything for satan. At the moment, I could not help uttering heartfelt thanks and praises to God: O Almighty God, it is your words that have kept me and enabled me to see through satan’s schemes in the trial and to choose you between my relatives and you and hold the testimony for you; all this was because you gave me faith and strength. To you be glory! May you continue to lead and guide me, so that whatever trials I encounter in the future, even if I have to undergo all kinds of sufferings, I will hold the testimony for you and shame satan.
Fuyang City, Anhui Province