Once I was caught when preaching the gospel. Facing the fierce and cruel great red dragon, I was very frightened in my heart. During the interrogation, they threatened me, saying, “If you don’t confess, we’ll beat you. If you give away one of your people, we will release you….” Then I thought to myself: If I give one person away, I will be released and won’t suffer. Then who should I give away? Give away one of those who have dropped out of God’s family? Or give away one of those who are performing duty away from their homes? But I reconsidered: If I do that, I will bring loss to God’s family and danger to the brothers and sisters. Just like this, a war went on furiously in my heart. I did not know what to do and only looked to God intensely. At the moment, God’s words inspired me: “…do things that all people like, do things that are beneficial to all people, and do things that are beneficial to your own destination. Otherwise, the ones who suffer in the disasters will not be others but you yourselves.” “And I … much less like to associate with anyone who betrays the interests of his friends, which is my nature, no matter who he is.” God’s words woke me up, and I could not help feeling ashamed for the thoughts I just had. Everything is in God’s hand. I did not rely on God to overcome these devils but readily believed them. Wasn’t that to fall into satan’s schemes? If I betray the brothers and sisters and the interests of God’s family, won’t I become a Judas who is utterly devoid of conscience? Won’t I bring destruction on myself because of offending God’s nature? At the moment, the great red dragon threatened me again: “If you still say nothing, we’ll use the electric baton!” Hearing these words, I felt frightened again. I feared that I could not overcome the tortures of these devils, so I earnestly looked to God in my heart: “O God! My stature is really too small. Facing the threat of the great red dragon, I do not know what I should do, but I am willing to hold the testimony for you. May you give me faith and strength, keep my heart from staying away from you, and keep me from bowing to the great red dragon.” Then, God’s words inspired me again: “You should know that all the surrounding circumstances have my permission and are being arranged by me. See this clearly. Satisfy my heart in the circumstances I’ve given you. Don’t fear this or that. The Almighty God of hosts will surely be with you. He will be your rear guard and shield.” Yes, all that comes upon me today has the permission of God’s throne. Having God as my support and shield, what am I afraid of? All at once, I felt an inexhaustible strength, and I feared no more. I would rather die than not hold the testimony for God! Facing the great red dragon’s threatening in every way and interrogating by turns, I just prayed silently and made no reply. Relying on the strength and wisdom given by God, I overcame the various kinds of tricks of the great red dragon. At last, the great red dragon could do nothing more but close the case.
This time I could hold the testimony before the great red dragon and this is owing to God’s keeping and the confidence and strength God’s words gave to me. I have tasted the power and authority of God’s word, and even more experienced that God’s nature is a symbol of the highest authority and a symbol of that which cannot be overpowered or damaged by any hostile powers. No matter how savage the great red dragon is, it is nothing but a tool that does service for God. No matter how fierce and cruel it is, it is still in God’s hand. It is God who rules over everything; as long as we truly rely on God, we can surely overcome it. O Almighty God, if you had not cared for and kept me, and if your hand had not been supporting me, perhaps I would have fallen into satan’s schemes and rebelled against you, falling under satan’s power and being doomed eternally. O God! Today I can still live before you and this is because of the leading of your hand of love and the guiding of your word. I am willing to offer my genuine thanks and praises to you. To you be all the glory!
Longkou City, Shandong Province