One day, a sister and I went to perform our duties. When we came back, it was late and so I had to stay at the sister’s home for the night. Before we went to bed, she said to me, “I’ve heard that the leader takes a bad attitude toward you and often criticizes you. If she treated me that way, I couldn’t stand it.”
When I heard that, I was very disturbed. I thought: “Even she knows the leader has a bad attitude toward me. If other brothers and sisters know about it, won’t they look down upon me?” Then I felt that the leading sister indeed treated me too badly. When I was on the point of venting my anger and passing judgment on the leading sister, I suddenly remembered God’s words: “Every time God does a work on people, outwardly it seems that people are contacting each other and that it is out of man’s arrangement or because of man’s frustration. But behind every work and every matter, satan is making a wager before God, and people need to stand for God’s testimony. … For example, you have a prejudice against a brother or a sister, and you want to say something, but you feel that it will not please God and yet you suffer within. At such a time, you will begin to undergo a war within: Should I speak or not? This is a war. So behind every matter there is a war. When you are undergoing a war within, through your cooperating practically and undergoing the suffering practically, God will work on you. In the end, you will be able to let the matter go in your heart, and automatically your anger will disappear. This is the result of your cooperating with God.”
The inspiration of God’s words made my heart calm down at once. Yes! Every time I encounter a matter, satan is making a wager before God and there is a war in the spiritual realm. I cannot be a laughingstock of satan. I cannot say any words that do not edify or benefit others. If I say, God will not be pleased with me.
Thinking of that, I said to the sister, “The leader criticized me that way because I could not accept the gospel-preaching ways and methods and thus delayed the gospel work. Besides, … there are too many things disobedient to God in me. It was to make me do my work well that she criticized me that way.” After saying these words, I felt very peaceful. Although my dignity was touched a little, I did not follow my flesh to judge that sister at will but forsook my flesh and satisfied God. This was the result God’s words achieved in me. Without the timely inspiration of God’s words, I would have fallen into satan’s temptation and thereby vented the resentment in my heart. In that case, I would have caused this sister to have a notion about God’s family and have a prejudice against the leader, and I myself would have also suffered loss in life.
I was grateful for the timely guidance of God’s words. It restrained my tongue from sinning, so that I tasted the sweetness of forsaking the flesh to satisfy God. In this small experience, I also realized that in all things, big and small, which are controlled and arranged by God, I need to stand for God’s testimony.
Diaobingshan City, Liaoning Province