Now, God required us to write the testifying articles, writing the transformation processes of how we at first resisted and disobeyed God’s end-time work and later accepted Almighty God, and also asked those, who were once leaders in their former denominations, to sign their real names and addresses in their articles. For that, I had a notion and was full of misgivings because I resisted God very seriously at that time. I suspected that God’s family would ask me to write out the exact facts and then get the evidence of my resisting and blaspheming God and then would kick me out of God’s family. Thinking of that, I became very passive.
Once when I was eating and drinking God’s word, I read these words: “I appreciate very much those who have no suspicion about others and like very much those who are willing to accept the truth. I care for these people very much, because these two kinds of people are honest people in my eyes. If you are a very crafty person, you will have guard against and suspicion about everything and everyone. So your belief in me is also based on suspicion. Such a belief can never be acknowledged by me. Since you do not have a true belief, much less do you have a truer love. You can even doubt God and can even suspect him at will, so you are undoubtedly a most crafty person. You suspect whether God is unforgivably sinful like man, is petty-minded like man, is unfair and unreasonable like man, is without the sense of justice like man, is diabolic in his ways and sinister and cunning like man, is fond of evil and darkness like man, and so on. Isn’t it all because people do not have any knowledge of God that they can have these thoughts? Such a belief is simply doing evil!” (From “How to Know the God on Earth”) Examining myself against this passage of God’s words, I came to know that I was full of suspicions about God and was a most crafty person. In the past, I always regarded others as crafty but never tried to know myself. Today, exposed by God’s words, I realize that I was actually a most cunning person; and I thought so ill of God, thinking that God also used tricks to fix people and make them suffer. This was treating God as a human, blaspheming God and seriously offending God’s nature. I saw that my belief was so pitiable that following God up to the present I still had no knowledge about God. In retrospect I once resisted and blasphemed God so badly, but God didn’t treat me according to my transgressions and still expended so much painstaking effort to save me and bring me back to God’s family, so that I could have the opportunity to be perfected by God. God treated me so graciously and I had already owed God too much! And now God gives me an opportunity to write articles about my past experiences of disobeying and resisting God at first and then being saved by God, to testify about God’s deed, God’s great power, and God’s appearing, and thereby I can give my mite to the work of spreading the kingdom gospel. Isn’t this an opportunity God gives me to make up for my indebtedness? But I didn’t appreciate God’s kindness and I even suspected and misunderstood God. I really don’t deserve to live before God and really don’t deserve to be saved by God.
Thank God for revealing and exposing me, so that I have come to know my craftiness and see my ugliness and my substance of resisting God. In my future experiences, I will pursue the transformation of my nature, and strive to be an honest person, be a person who has no suspicions about God and who treats God as God, so as to console God’s heart.
Fuxin City, Liaoning Province