Uplifted by God, I preached the gospel in a second-line team. One day, when I just arrived home, my husband said to me, “Our second daughter called and asked you to go to take care of the baby for her.” (My second daughter worked in Shenzhen.) “What?” I was shocked in my heart. “How can I do that? The gospel work is so pressing now; how could I put God’s work aside? I can’t go there, no matter what.” After a while, my second daughter called again. She cried and said, “Mom, come quickly. Who will attend to me if you don’t? Do you not love me? Do you have the heart to see me in difficulty?” Her heartrending words caused me to burst into tears in spite of myself. “What should I do? On one side is God’s commission, and on the other my daughter. If I go and throw up the commission, I am rebelling against God; if I do not go, I really do not have the heart to sadden and disappoint my daughter.” I could not help but seek God in tears, “O God, I am very distressed over this matter, and I don’t know what to do. May you inspire me.” Thank God that he inspired me. I remembered what had often been fellowshipped before, “At a crucial moment, God’s commission is first and the work of God’s family is first.” Isn’t now the moment for me to drop my emotion and put the commission of God’s family first? At this thought, I made up my mind not to go there: I will uphold the testimony for God at any cost.
On the next early morning, unexpectedly, my elder daughter called. She cried and said fiercely, “Why don’t you go there? If you don’t go, I’ll ask father to sell all the grain and not to give you a cent. I’ll see what you will eat and spend! I’ve never seen such a cruel-hearted mother as you. You don’t love your daughter at all!” My husband echoed her words and urged that I should go soon, otherwise they would really cast me aside. In the face of their persuasion and coercion, I lost my standing instantly. “If I don’t go this time, I will surely offend my two daughters. Alas! If I didn’t believe in God, I wouldn’t be in disharmony with my family and cause them to be angry. If they really cast me aside, then in the future I…” Thinking of this, I decided to go. When I was about to compromise, God’s words arose in my mind: “Satan is at all times devouring man’s knowledge of me and is at all times desperately making its final deathbed struggle. Are you willing to be captured by its schemes at this time? Are you willing to ruin your whole lives at the time the final work is completed?” Oh, what a danger! I almost fell into the scheme of satan and became its captive. O God, thank you that your words inspired and guided me in time so that I have seen all this clearly. Satan was dragging me through my two daughters, making me depart from you and rebel against you to do service for it, so that finally I would be destroyed with it. O God, I won’t be tricked by satan again. No matter how they persecute me and how they may treat me in the future, I will resolutely stand on your side.
When I resolved again to satisfy God, my husband, who had stood on my daughters’ side all along, said to me suddenly, “It’s all right if you don’t go. I’ll go. You believe in God with all your might at home, and we may receive some benefit.” At that time, I felt very excited: O God, you are so wonderful and almighty! You are the ever-victorious king. It is you who have defeated all the hostile powers and made a way out for me.
Through this experience, I saw that I was ignorant and blind and had no discernment when encountering things. Had it not been for God’s care and keeping, I really could not have stood. At the same time, I also experienced that the word of God is my support, my beacon light, and even more my weapon to defeat satan. From now on, I will equip myself with more truths, and in everything I encounter, I will act according to God’s word and uphold the testimony for God.
Nanyang City, Henan Province