The Riches of Life
By Wang Jun, Shandong Province
The years since my wife and I accepted the work ofin the last days have been spent under the oppression of the CCP. During this time, although I have had weaknesses, pain, and tears, I have gained a great deal from experiencing the persecution of the CCP. These bitter experiences have not only made me clearly see CCP’s reactionary, evil satanic nature and its ugly countenance, but I have also known my own corrupt essence. It has also allowed me to experience God’s almightiness and wisdom. I have truly experienced and recognized the actual significance of God utilizing the CCP as a foil, and my confidence in following God has become firmer and firmer.
After accepting God’s work in the last days, my wife and I fulfilled our duty by providing hospitality in our home. At that time, there were brothers and sisters living with us and they were frequently going in and out of our house. So, we were relatively well-known in the area for believing in God. In the winter of 2003, the oppression of the CCP became more and more severe. One day, our leader said to us: “The police have their eyes on you. You’re in danger of being arrested at any moment; find a safe place to hide as soon as possible so that you’re not arrested.” After hearing this, I was shocked. I can’t put words to the feeling in my heart when I thought of leaving my home. I thought: “This tile-roofed house that I worked so hard to build, that we have lived in for less than a year—I’m not willing to leave it just like that! Oh God, if You could just let us live here for a few years before we have to leave, that would be fine. Living somewhere else isn’t as convenient, as comfortable as living at home.” But due to the oppression of the CCP, I had no other choice but to sell our new house and move. As I was looking around our newly-built house, I felt a wave of sorrow and pain. I really couldn’t bear to part with it; I felt that selling it at that time was such a shame. Just as I was accounting for the gains and losses of the flesh, I thought of the following words from God: “Abraham offered up Isaac. What have you offered up? Job offered up everything. What have you offered up? So many people have given their lives, laid down their heads, shed their blood in order to seek the true way. Have you paid that price? By comparison, you are not at all qualified to enjoy such great grace” (“The Significance of Saving the Descendants of Moab” in). God’s words pierced to the core of my heart like a double-edged sword. I felt terribly ashamed. It was true! In order to meet God’s requirements, Abraham was willing to bear great pain to part with what he loved, to return his only son as a burnt offering to God. When Satan and God made a bet, although Job lost all of his possessions and his ten children, he was still able to praise and extol the name of Jehovah God. Even in the end when he suffered the tortures of being abandoned by his friends and family and being stricken with illness, he would still rather curse the day of his birth than blame God. He made a strong and resounding witness for God and Satan suffered a complete and humiliating defeat. There were also all those saints and prophets through the ages—in order to follow God’s will, some of them gave up their youth and their marriages, some of them gave up their families and relatives and the wealth of the world. Some even laid down their own lives for God’s work. But looking at myself, even though I was enjoying the rare grace of that generations of saints never enjoyed and rich words for life bestowed by God, what had I given up for God? What had I offered up for God? Because of the CCP’s current oppression and arrests, I had no choice but to leave home so that I wouldn’t fall into their evil clutches and be subjected to brutal persecution. However, all I cared about was my new tile-roofed house and the enjoyment of the flesh. I didn’t even value the safety of my own life just for the sake of a bit of fleshly enjoyment right in front of me. I really am greedy for comfort and I value money over life! Today, I wasn’t willing to leave my home behind even for the sake of my safety. If I were asked to turn my back on my own personal interests and devote myself to God or give up my life for God’s work, how could someone like me—who loves money as life itself, who covets the enjoyment of the flesh—be willing to devote himself to God? Would I not just run away straight away? I thought of myself often shooting off my mouth, saying: “I am willing to follow Peter’s example and be a pioneer for loving God. I am willing to give up everything and to expend everything for God. I only want to satisfy God.” But when faced with an actual situation, all this had become lies. I only thought of my own immediate interests, and I actually tried to bargain with God for fleshly enjoyment. Then, I asked myself: Could it be that this is the love I have to return to God? God has said: “If you love, then you will gladly dedicate yourself, will gladly suffer hardship, you will be compatible with Me, you will forsake all that you have for Me…. If not, your love would not be love at all, but deceit and betrayal! What kind of love is yours? Is it a true love? Or false? How much have you forsaken? How much have you offered up? How much love have I received from you? Do you know? Your hearts are filled with evil, betrayal, and deceit …” (“Many Are Called, but Few Are Chosen” in The Word Appears in the Flesh). I made an oath in front of God but did not honor it. Isn’t this trying to deceive God, to fool Him? When I thought of that, I couldn’t help but prostrate myself in front of God and pray: “Oh Almighty God! I always used to believe that I was willing to host any number of brothers and sisters without ever whining about any hardships, and that this was an expression of my love for You. But only now have I seen the revelation of the facts that my so-called love was conditional and selective. It was all based on what I wanted, and I only had it in a comfortable environment. But when You required me to endure fleshly hardships and compromise my own interests, my ‘love’ just disappeared. From that I saw that I didn’t really contain love for You and that I was not at all performing my duty to repay Your love, but it was to use a small price I paid to barter for great blessings. I really am an opportunist through and through. I simply am not fit to live in front of You, and I am even less fit to receive all the sustenance for life that You provide! Oh God, I am no longer willing to deceive You and rebel against You, to hurt You. I am willing to keep my vow, to put aside my own personal benefit, and to obey Your orchestrations and arrangements.” After that, I sold that new house, bought a two-room apartment in an unfamiliar place, and we resumed our hosting duties there.
In the blink of an eye it was the spring of 2004 and unexpectedly, the CCP police once again had their eyes on us. They sent two spies to our house pretending to be fortune-tellers to get some information. I gave thanks to God for His enlightenment and guidance; we saw through their scheme, and relying on God, we employed wisdom and ushered them out. After the church learned of this, our duties were suspended. They suggested us to find jobs in order to safeguard our environment. From that time on, we had almost no contact with our brothers and sisters. The local situation became more and more tense. Six months later, we unexpectedly received a notification from the church saying that a Judas had sold us out and that we needed to move as quickly as possible to avoid falling into the hands of the CCP. Facing this situation, I couldn’t help but have a hatred for the CCP. I thought of the past when I had heard the CCP’s words proclaiming: “Citizens have freedom of religion, and their legitimate rights and interests are protected.” There were also churches being built; my adoration of the Party really increased. But that day, in the face of reality, I finally clearly saw the ugly face of the CCP. I saw through its machinations and realized that what it proclaimed and what it did were worlds apart—the things the CCP said and did were nothing but lies and deception. They were all despicable means to deceive and blind people. The CCP was sinister and ruthless, cunning and deceitful, perverse, against Heaven, and utterly reactionary. It was a demon that devoured and brought harm to people! God incarnate came to the earth to save His creation, mankind. This was God’s love for man; it was an enormous, joyous thing, but the CCP would not allow God to come among mankind, would not allow people to worship God and walk a proper path in their lives. It did everything it could to frantically hunt Christ, it cruelly persecuted the chosen people of God, and tried to disrupt and destroy God’s work. It attempted to exterminate God, to kill all the chosen people of God, and to demolish God’s work in the last days. It truly was utterly reactionary and intolerable by Heaven! Just then these words of God just came into my mind: “Religious freedom? The legitimate rights and interests of citizens? They are all tricks for covering up sin! … Why put up such an impenetrable obstacle to the work of God? Why employ various tricks to deceive God’s folk? Where is the true freedom and legitimate rights and interests? Where is the fairness? Where is the comfort? Where is the warmth? Why use deceitful schemes to trick God’s people? Why use force to suppress the coming of God? Why not allow God to freely roam upon the earth that He created? Why hound God until He has nowhere to rest His head?” (“Work and Entry (8)” in The Word Appears in the Flesh). Through God’s words I was able to clearly see the ugly face of the CCP, to clearly see the truth of its resistance to and persecution of God as well as its harm and restraints of people. I thought of how many brothers and sisters who, under its oppression and pursuit, could not return home and led the lives of vagabonds, of the homeless. I thought of how many brothers and sisters had suffered the destructiveness of its inhuman torture, how many brothers and sisters had been imprisoned on false charges and passed so many dark days, leading hellish lives no better than a dog or a pig, only because they believed in God and performed their duty. I also thought of how many brothers and sisters who had no freedom at all under its surveillance; they could not lead a normal life. Today, us believing in God and offering hospitality for our brothers and sisters was merely performing our duty as creations. We were carrying out our responsibilities, and absolutely had not contravened the laws or regulations, but we were still subject to CCP’s baseless strictures and oppression. We could only uproot ourselves and go to yet another place to fulfill our duty. In spite of this, the police did not relax in their pursuit of us, they actually disguised themselves as fortune-tellers to dig up information, thinking they could find some evidence to arrest and persecute us. The CCP truly is immeasurably sinister, treacherous, despicable, and vicious! At that thought, I felt even greater righteous indignation and was full of deep hatred for the CCP. Thanks be to God! It was God’s practical work and words that completely removed the mask of the CCP and fully exposed the ugliness of its hypocrisy with an appearance of dignity. This finally opened my eyes which had been blind. My spirit was awakened, and I saw the clarity of the truth that the CCP builds up its name by deceiving the public and the truth of its deceit and harmfulness. So I had the confidence and determination to firmly forsake it, to reject it. Meanwhile, I gained an even greater understanding of God’s righteousness, holiness, brightness, beauty and goodness. I saw His great salvation and care for us corrupt humans. No matter how harsh the environment was, no matter what kind of resistance and oppression there was from the CCP, God has never given up His salvation for us. He is still enduring all suffering to do the work He must do. In this filthy, evil world, God is all we can rely upon—He gives us the greatest love and the greatest salvation. This has led to my aspiration and longing for a lifetime of pursuing the truth, and following Christ. Thanks be to God for laying out such a feast for me to partake of, that in the midst of misery I can gain discernment and insight. From now on, no matter how the CCP persecutes or pursues me, I will rely on God, not be intimidated by its despotism, and break through the control of the forces of darkness. I only wish to closely follow God and fulfill the duty of a created being in order to repay the grace of God’s salvation.
Because of the harsh conditions that didn’t allow us to stay there for long, we rushed to move to another unfamiliar place. After our arrival, a sister from the local church told us that this was an ethnic minority area and that the CCP government had less strict control over this place. So the situation there was less tense. But my heart wasn’t at ease. I thought to myself: “The CCP government is currently in power; it’s feels like dark clouds are bearing down on us. It will not allow us toin peace.” Sure enough, when we had been there for just 20 days, CCP spies came to our home under the guise of collecting a sanitation fee. Only seeing my wife at home, they started searching for me inside and outside of the house, sternly asking my wife where she was from, where her residence was registered, and why she had come here. One of them described my appearance and asked her to confirm it. My wife didn’t think much of it and said “Yes,” and as soon as they heard that they exchanged a look with each other. Only then did my wife realize that they knew what I looked like without having seen me. It had to have been the Judas who sold me out, who had even described my appearance to them. After the CCP spies left they went to the house of the neighbors just behind us. It was not until then that we realized that they had been monitoring us. We immediately reported this to the church. Before long, a sister from the church wrote us a letter that said: “The local police have had contact with the police from your hometown. They are determined to arrest those of you who have been sold out. They want to first observe the situation with unannounced visits and get a grasp on you, and when the time is right they’ll make a clean sweep of all of you. Your situation is perilous, you should go back to your hometown in Shandong and hide out. Get on the road quickly—the sooner the better.” After receiving this note, we didn’t dare to brush it off. We decided to leave the next day. That evening, I was tossing and turning and absolutely could not get to sleep. I was not only incredibly angry at the mad persecution of the CCP, but I also felt confused and disconsolate about the road ahead. Oh! At first I thought that believing in God was simple, that all I needed to do was acknowledge God with my words, believe in Him in my heart, and do my best to fulfill my duties and I would receive God’s praise. I had never imagined that this road would become more difficult the longer I walked it. Just as I was feeling worried and sad because of my arduous journey of believing in God, His words enlightened me: “People do not take belief in God seriously, and this is entirely because believing in God is too unfamiliar, too strange for them. In this way, they fall short of God’s demands. In other words, if people do not know God, and do not know His work, then they are not fit for God’s use, and still less are they able to satisfy His will. ‘Belief in God’ means believing that there is a God; this is the simplest concept as regards believing in God. What’s more, believing that there is a God is not the same as truly believing in God; rather, it is a kind of simple faith with strong religious overtones. True means the following: On the basis of the belief that God holds sovereignty over all things, one experiences His words and His work, purges one’s corrupt disposition, satisfies the will of God, and comes to know God. Only a journey of this kind may be called ‘faith in God.’” (Preface to The Word Appears in the Flesh). I pondered these words in silence. Inside, I gradually brightened: Yes, it is the truth that true faith in God means experiencing His words and work based on a belief that He holds sovereignty over all things, obeying all of God’s arrangements, and pursuing truth so we can be freed of our corrupt dispositions, fulfill the desire of God, and come to know Him. Only through such a journey can we be said to believe in God. It absolutely was not as simple as I had believed, that I only needed to acknowledge Him with my words, never stop having gatherings with others, reading the words of God, and fulfilling my duty. This type of belief of mine was just a vague religious belief and it did not contain the essence of belief in God. Even if I followed to the end, I could not possibly satisfy God’s will, nor could I gain His praise. I thought of Peter; in his belief in God, he emphasized taking God’s word into his everyday life to experience it. No matter what happened, he was seeking to satisfy God’s will and requirements. Whether it was judgment and chastisement, trials and refinement, or adversity and suffering as well as disciplining, he was always able to accept it and obey. From that, he sought the truth, pursued knowledge of himself and knowledge of God. His pursuit of many years not only resulted in a change in his own disposition, but he also came to have greater knowledge of God than any other through the ages. Peter’s faith was most in line with God’s will, and it was the most up to standard. But I had too simple of an outlook on believing in God. I thought that I continually have gatherings with others, read the words of God, and fulfill my duty and I would be able to receive His praise. What difference is there between my ideas and those of religious people? In the end, wouldn’t it all still be in vain? Only then did I recognize that all my years of believing in God were awash in confusion. I didn’t even know what it meant to believe in God. If it hadn’t been for God’s practical revelations and the guidance and enlightenment of His words, I would still have been following God while living in my own conceptions and imagination. I still would not have seen that I am truly a religious believer who only follows his own way. I couldn’t help but feel a little scared then. I realized that if I continued with this confused way of following God without focusing on experiencing His work, or focusing on pursuing the truth or a change in disposition, in the end I would certainly be eliminated by God. When I became aware of my perilous condition, I immediately offered up a prayer to God: “Oh God! Thank You for Your revelations and Your enlightenment which have allowed me to understand the truth and to recognize the errors in my belief in God. Oh God! I am willing to follow the example of Peter’s practices, to pursue the path that he took. Since I have chosen this path now, I am willing to go forward with confidence no matter how treacherous the road is or how many dangers lurk ahead of me. I am willing to have the will to suffer, to obey Your orchestrations and arrangements, and to truly experience Your words and work according to Your requirements of me so that I can become a creation of Yours who truly believes in You and worships You.” I felt very relieved after praying and I had confidence to experience the work of God.
The next day, we got on a train to Shandong. After hiding out for a period of time in our hometown as well as a few setbacks, we were finally able to have contact with the church, and we resumed our life of the church. But the CCP government had not relaxed in its persecution of us. No matter where we went, we were always subject to its restrictions. The police came by frequently to inspect residence permits—sometimes they would come twice in one day and absolutely insisted that we register for temporary residence permits, otherwise they would drive us out. However, we couldn’t show them any documentation at all. So, moving house became a commonplace thing for us. Later, we moved into a larger house that the son of an elderly brother in the church rented, so this brother hosted us there. But there not only did we have to register for a temporary residence permit, but we had to have an entry and exit permit or else we wouldn’t be able to come and go, much less be able to move in. We had to hide inside of the house and we couldn’t go out. Even so, the police still did not give up. They still frequently went door to door conducting inspections. From this we saw that in this dictatorial, faithless country ruled by an atheist party, belief in God was suppressed and oppressed at every turn; there was no freedom. Particularly during the 2008 Olympics the situation was very tense, very harsh. The government used every possible means to monitor people and police were standing guard everywhere. However, it was under these circumstances that we saw God’s almightiness, wisdom, and His wonderful deeds, that it was God orchestrating everything. Every time the police wanted to conduct an inspection, by God’s arrangement, the man watching the main gate would come tell our elderly brother in advance so that we could get quickly prepared and hide beforehand. There was one time when the police carried out a surprise inspection while we were in the middle of a meeting. We heard the dogs outside barking like crazy. The people conducting the inspection had forced their way into the courtyard and under the pretense of checking electricity meters, they were going all over, looking around, searching, interrogating, and threatening our elderly brother, who used wisdom from God to get them to leave. We were all afraid after they left. Luckily we had all hidden in time—if they had found us or the books of God’s words, the consequences would have been unimaginable. Just as there was fear lingering in my heart, I thought of these words of God: “Don’t suffer the control of any person, matter or object; so long as it conforms to My will then practice it in accordance with My words. Have no fear, as My hands support you, and I will surely protect you from all evil ones” (“Chapter 28” of Utterances of Christ in the Beginning in The Word Appears in the Flesh). “Act courageously! Just keep your heads up! Do not be afraid: I—your Father—am here to support you, and you will not suffer. As long as you pray and supplicate before Me frequently, I will bestow all faith upon you. Those in power may seem vicious from the outside, but do not be afraid, for this is because you have little faith. As long as your faith grows, nothing will be too difficult. Cheer and jump to your hearts’ content! Everything is beneath your feet and in My grasp. Isn’t accomplishment or destruction decided by one word of Mine?” (“Chapter 75” of Utterances of Christ in the Beginning in The Word Appears in the Flesh). God’s words made me feel ashamed. It was true. Aren’t all people, events, and things in this world within God’s orchestrations and arrangements? Don’t they all turn, renew, and change according to His thoughts? The CCP is also a creature in God’s hands. No matter how savage it is, it cannot escape His rule. If He wants to destroy it, wouldn’t He just have to say the word? God has not destroyed it, but He has allowed its savagery for a time. It is so that it does the service of perfecting us through its oppression, bolstering our faith and courage, and it is to allow us to know God’s wisdom, omnipotence, and wonderful deeds through our experiences. It is also to allow us to better recognize the evil, reactionary nature as well as the ugly countenance of the CCP in its oppression, so that we may hate it, reject it, betray it, and curse it from the bottom of our hearts. Under the guidance and leadership of God’s words, not only was I no longer timid and fearful, but I was full of gratitude for God. I was willing to be obedient within this environment and deal with the CCP, to accept God’s own training and perfection, to seek to understand and gain more of the truth. Over the following few months, the local police would make two or three surprise visits every month, so we were unable to prepare for them. But it was under these terrible conditions that we were able to escape their view time and time again under God’s care and protection. There were always near misses, and things always barely turned out okay. After these experiences, I couldn’t help but feel genuine gratitude and praise for God deep in my heart. I thought: “Oh Almighty God! You truly are the Lord of the universe who is in charge of all things. Your wonderful deeds are everywhere! Through my actual experiences I have not only had a taste of Your omnipotence and wisdom, but I have seen that You are my strong rear guard, You are my refuge and I have seen that the CCP is nothing but a paper tiger. When looking from the outside it is all claws and teeth and terribly overbearing, but when it faces You, it is so powerless—it cannot withstand a single blow. It can only obediently heed Your assignments and orchestrations. As long as I have the confidence to rely on You I can triumph over all of the forces of darkness. Oh God! Although I am now in this demon-controlled country, I will not be under the constraints of any person, event, or thing. I will only rise up from the oppression of darkness, stand up from this place of filth to act as evidence of Your victory.”
Under the terrible circumstances of being pursued by the CCP, I deeply felt that it was Almighty God’s words leading me through crisis after crisis, helping me triumph time after time in Satan’s tests. It was God’s great grace and protection that brought me here today. Thinking back on the road I’ve taken, I’ve suffered the oppression and pursuit of the CCP, I’ve been unable to return home and have been displaced, I have had to move from place to place, and I haven’t had a “warm nest” as worldly people do, nor have I been able to be as light-hearted as them or lead a leisurely life. And because of the oppression of the CCP, my heart has endured significant suffering and pain. However, because I have experienced these bitter situations, I have gained the riches of life. By undergoing the CCP’s oppression I realized that my belief had been vague over my years of faith, and that I have selfish, despicable nature and essence. I also understood the true meaning and value of believing in God, and even more, I saw that I did not possess the true reality of believing in and loving God. Through this experience of its oppression, I also became aware of the CCP’s insidious, despicable, vicious, fierce, evil, perverse, reactionary essence which is contrary to God. I fully saw that the CCP is the embodiment of Satan and I also recognized God’s essence of righteousness, trustworthiness, brightness, beauty and goodness. In particular, I came to appreciate God’s wisdom and almightiness, as well as His wondrous deeds. It was through this very practical experience that I thoroughly saw how Satan corrupts, dupes, and harms mankind. From that I developed a deep hatred for it, and I was willing to rely on God’s words to throw off the corrupt disposition of Satan, to be able to thoroughly turn my back on Satan, to live as a real person and satisfy God’s heart. I give thanks to Almighty God! It was God’s practical work that allowed me to personally taste such a rich feast of life. It not only awakened my heart, but it allowed me to gain so many great riches of life, and before I knew it I had stepped onto the proper path of believing in God. I give heartfelt thanks and praise to God!