I Am a Snob Who Only Obeys “Position” and “Status”
God says: “If he did not work with the status of God Godself but only worked with the status of a normal man, people would simply not allow him to speak a word, much less allow him to do any work. So he has to work with his status, which is more powerful than his working without his status, because all people like to obey ‘position’ and ‘high status.’” When I read these words, I did not quite take them. I felt that I was not that kind of person and that God’s words were a little exaggerated. However, exposed by a fact, I saw that God’s words are the truth.
In this July, I coordinated with a sister named Xiaohong in caring for the new believers. When I learned that she accepted God’s new work only one year earlier than me, I belittled her a little in spite of myself. In our coordination, I always thought that she talked too much, drew too many analogies, and went round too large a circle in telling stories, and I always felt that she was showing off. After contacting her for some time, I found that the results of her work were quite good, but I still could not treat her rightly and always had prejudices against and bad opinions of her. Later, when our group leader came to me to ask about the new believers, she reminded me, saying, “Xiaohong had once been a small-district leader for several years, and she is good at resolving the new believers’ notions. You should learn more from her strong points.” What? I started in my heart. She was once a small-district leader? Why didn’t you tell me earlier? No wonder the results of her work are so good; she had been a small-district leader. If I had known it earlier, I would not have found fault with her or had prejudices against her. Ay! Anyhow, I should not treat her in that way anymore. From then on, my attitude toward her took a 180-degree turn. When we cared for the new believers, no matter how she fellowshipped with them, I felt that her fellowship was good. And I always wanted her to fellowship more and was willing to humble myself to learn more from her.
One day, while I did my spiritual devotions, a passage of God’s word came into my view: “If he did not work with the status of God Godself but only worked with the status of a normal man, people would simply not allow him to speak a word, much less allow him to do any work. So he has to work with his status, which is more powerful than his working without his status, because all people like to obey ‘position’ and ‘high status.’”
Facing God’s words, I began to examine myself: Am I not one God exposes about who obeys “position” and “high status”? Before I knew the seniority of the sister coordinating with me, I looked down on her; even though I saw the results of her work were good, I did not want to learn from her and even found fault with her. But after I learned that she was once a small-district leader, I changed my attitude toward her and found many strong points in her, all of which I did not have. Judging from my expressions, I am not a believer in God, much less a person who accepts the truth and obeys God, but a snob who obeys “position” and “high status.” Today I treated brothers and sisters in this way; then how would I treat Christ? If today Christ worked among us without bearing his “position” and “status,” I could never obey her or accept all the truth she expressed because of her substance, even less treat her as God; rather, I would treat her as an ordinary person and even condemn or blaspheme her words. This was decided by the substance of my nature.
Through God’s inspiration today, I saw that my arrogant and conceited ugly manner in which I formerly treated God’s words was really disgusting. Even more, it made me feel ashamed, too ashamed to show my face. Today, faced with the fact, I was completely convinced of the words by which God exposed man, believing that they are the truth and the actual situation.
O God! If you had not exposed me by the fact, I would never have believed that your every word is never-changing truth. Only today have I seen my satanic nature that I am arrogant and conceited, have no humanity or sense, do not love the truth but only love position and status. O God, thank you for your salvation of me. From now on, I will spend more effort on your word, and even more I will strictly examine myself according to your word, know my substance, do my best to pursue the transformation of my nature, and pursue to be a person who has true knowledge of you.
Jincheng City, Shanxi Province