When there came the work arrangement which said that the gospel could be preached to the gentiles, a sister fellowshipped with me: “Preaching the gospel to the gentiles is God’s present will. And from this we can see that God maximally saves everyone belonging to him. We should obey God and satisfy God’s heart to testify about God’s work to our relatives and friends. But they must be good in humanity and acknowledge that there is a God….” At that time, I agreed with my lips, but inwardly I thought, “Now, even some of those who are following God’s work are passive and weak and are left behind. How is it possible that the gentiles will believe? And how can they keep up with the pace of God’s work? Won’t it be a waste of time to preach the gospel to them? If I have time, I would rather eat and drink more of God’s words….” So, I never put this matter in my mind.
After a period of time, the sister came to my home again. When knowing that I still did not go to preach the gospel, she fellowshipped with me about God’s will. And she told me that many brothers and sisters simply obeyed the work arrangement and God specially worked on them, and they achieved good results in preaching the gospel to the gentiles. And then she ate and drank a passage of God’s word with me: “If you cannot accept the new light coming from God and cannot see clearly what God does today but do not seek, either doubting, judging, or researching and analyzing, you are not one who intentionally obeys. When the present light comes forth, if you still treasure the light of yesterday and resist the new work, such is purely an absurd person and is a person who deliberately resists God. The crucial point in obeying God is being able to receive the newest light and to accept and practice it. Only this is true obedience.” Every word of God pricked my heart, and only then did I realize that I was not a person obedient to God. When God’s work didn’t conform to my notions, I not only didn’t seek God’s intention, but on the contrary, I analyzed and researched it with my mind. When I couldn’t understand it, I pushed it aside and did not put it into practice. Wasn’t I very unreasonable to do that? Wasn’t I deliberately resisting God? I can’t be disobedient anymore. I will try to meet God’s will and bring before God those gentiles who believe there is God and who have a good humanity.
Later, I preached the gospel to my great-aunt. To my surprise, she accepted it gladly. What’s more, after a time she made rapid progress in entering into the truths. Seeing such a fact, I felt all the more ashamed. God’s practical work counterattacked my notion, made me see my disobedience and resistance, and even more, gave me some understanding of these words of God: “Whatever I speak, the Holy Spirit will do. If you do according to what I speak, the Holy Spirit will immediately work on you. When I release the new light and let you see it and lead you all into the present light, if you enter into the present light, the Holy Spirit will immediately work on you.” O God, in the future, no matter what you do, I will never analyze or research it. I’m willing to drop my notions, accept the newest light from you, and be a person who has reason and who obeys you.
Langfang City, Hebei Province