Our family all believed in the Almighty God. My elder brother drove a taxi, and sometimes he performed his duty in God’s family. Outwardly, he pursued quite hard. Some brothers and sisters said, “How nice it is that your family are all believers. Pursue hard and you all can enter the kingdom.” At that I was very happy, hoping that there would be such a day.
Unexpectedly, one day in September 2001, my brother had a tragic accident and was killed. The news was simply a bolt from the blue to me. “How could this be? My brother had believed in the Almighty God. God should have kept him….” On the scene, I was grief-stricken and could not refrain from my tears. I thought, “O God, my brother didn’t do anything resisting you. How could he have suffered such a disaster? Isn’t it that he who believes in you will not die? …” I complained constantly in my heart.
After I got back home, I was still very grieved and remained puzzled. Later, after I struggled in grief for days, God guided me to read this passage of God’s word: “Righteousness is like this. If a thing fits man’s notions, it is quite easy for man to say that it is righteous. If a thing dies not fit man’s notions and is beyond man’s comprehension, it will be very difficult for man to say that it is righteous. …when God destroys a person, should he give him the reason? Should he explain to him on what basis he destroys him? It’s not necessary, is it? Is it necessary to base it on ‘he who is of use I will not destroy, and he who is of no use I will destroy’? No. In God’s eyes, a corrupt person can be disposed of in any way; whatever God does is proper and is under his arrangement. If he dislikes you and you are of no use after bearing a testimony, and so he destroys you, is that righteous? It’s righteous. Although now in reality you find it difficult to understand, you have to know it in doctrine. … Everything God does is righteous. Though you can’t discover that, you should not judge casually and say God is unrighteous in a thing that you think is unreasonable or you have a notion about. … It is really not an easy thing to know God’s nature.” The words of the Almighty God corrected my wrong viewpoint, and I felt much brightened in my heart. I had thought that as a believer in God my brother should not die, and if he died it would be unrighteous. Now I have known that such a thought was so unreasonable. Little did I know that God is the Creator and in his eyes a corrupt person can be disposed of in any way and without a basis. God has the substance of being righteous, so whatever God does contains righteousness. Man should not analyze a thing from its appearance, and even less is he entitled to ask God to do it as he wants. Even if man can’t see through it, he should obey and shouldn’t think that God is unrighteous or that God has done it wrong. Thank God. Because of God’s words, although I can’t see through my brother’s death nor clearly understand God’s will, I know that it is an expression of God’s righteous nature, and I shouldn’t complain against God because of that.
God’s words kept me and also kept my family. Although we wept bitter tears, we did not lose our faith. It was God’s words that accompanied us through the most difficult days. And it was God’s words that gave me a little bit of knowledge of God’s righteous nature.
Tonghua City, Jilin Province