Some time ago, one of the small-district leaders, in performing her duty, complained about hardships and difficulties and could not experience forward, no longer wanting to be a small-district leader. I fellowshipped with her for a whole morning, yet she remained untouched and wordless, just weeping straight. Then, the other small-district leaders called me; some of them said that the gospel work was ineffective and no people had been won, some said that the churches lacked capable persons and the leading teams could not be formed…. In the face of all this, I went into a terrible stew, “Ay, this hurts too much. Every day chastisement, judgment, suffering, and refining follow me, and my heart is always in pain. Either this person becomes passive, or that person can’t experience forward, or various difficulties arise in the work; it’s too stressful and distressing. I can’t bear it anymore.” So, I left there on the pretext of going back to the host home where I stayed to get the statistics on believers.
When I returned to the host home, I found that the host sister was also in a bad state, waiting for me to fellowship with her. Alas! I have no place to escape. I had no choice but to come before God and pray. Then I opened the book of God’s word and read these words: “You should know that when God perfects men, completes men, and gains men, all that it brings upon their flesh is sword and smiting, endless sufferings, burning of fire, and merciless judgments, chastisements, and curses, and endless trials. This is the inside truth and the real situation of the work of managing man. But all these are aimed at men’s flesh, and all the spearheads of opposition are mercilessly targeted at men’s ‘flesh’ (because men are innocent). He does all these for the sake of his glory and testimony and for the sake of his management, because his work is not only for men but for his whole plan and for fulfilling his original intention in creating men. So perhaps ninety percent of what men experience are sufferings and fiery trials…. Men’s flesh is filthy, so all that it sees and enjoys is chastisements from God who is unfeeling and seems to have no normal sense. This is because God wants to reveal his righteous nature that is ‘unfeeling,’ is not to be offended by man, and hates the enemies. He makes known to men all his nature ‘by every possible means’ and ends his work of warring against satan that has lasted for six thousand years—his work of redeeming all mankind and destroying the old satan!”
God’s words somewhat woke me up. I came to understand that today when God perfects and completes and gains men, what it brings upon their flesh are endless sufferings and trials and merciless judgments and chastisements. This is the inside truth and the real situation of God’s managing men. Men’s flesh is filthy, of satan, and full of the elements of disobedience to God. In the end time, God wants to completely defeat satan and completely purify and perfect and gain men. So, God has done the work of chastisement and judgment and suffering and refining to deal with men’s flesh. He wants to make us people extremely corrupt into the models and specimens for his work in the entire universe, and into the first group of overcomers to glorify and testify about him. Now God’s work in Mainland China has drawn near to an end, and God’s heart burns with anxiety. God desires to make me perfect soon, so according to my corruptions and deficiencies, God has arranged as many surrounding people, matters, and things as possible to expose and perfect me. However, though I shouted every day that I would pursue to be an overcomer and to be perfected and gained by God, I did not know how God would perfect me and by what ways and means he would gain me. When God’s hand of perfecting really came upon me, I only saw the surrounding people, matters, and things and only felt suffering and torment. I was tired of God’s chastisement and judgment from my heart, always wanting to escape from the suffering and refining. How could such a person as me who does not know God’s work and is cowardly and has no perseverance, be perfected and gained by God in his work? Today, the small-district leader cannot experience forward, the gospel work is unfruitful, the leading teams have not yet been fully set up, and various difficulties have arisen in the churches; isn’t God perfecting my faith, tempering my willpower, and perfecting my will to love and satisfy God? In these difficulties, I will know my deficiencies and various kinds of corrupt satanic nature, enter into the reality of God’s word, and pursue to be perfected by God.
O God, thank you for the inspiration of your words. I have gained a little knowledge of your work of perfecting and gaining men, and understood that all the sufferings, refinings, chastisements, and judgments you have arranged for me are aimed at my flesh. Though my flesh undergoes sufferings and refinings, yet they can make me gain the transformation in my life nature. From now on, I will no longer be passive or draw back because my flesh undergoes sufferings and refinings. I’m willing to actively cooperate in all the work you do on me. The more my flesh suffers, the more I will pursue the truth and pursue to satisfy you, so that your work of perfecting and gaining man can achieve results in me.
Chifeng City, Liaoning Province