I knew from God’s word that if one wanted to be successful in believing in God, he had to pursue to be a person who carried out the will of God. I did not know when I had such a thought that what God is most concerned about is the gospel work; so, as long as I could have the gospel work spread and get more people to accept God’s new work, I would be a person who carried out the will of God. Therefore, I kept going around watering the churches and paid attention to sustaining the new believers by various methods and manners to cause the brothers and sisters to have enthusiasm and win more people in the gospel work. In spite of this, the gospel work was not effective all the time. Every month many of the new believers dropped out, the church life did not improve all along, and the brothers and sisters became passive and uttered complaints when they encountered things against their notions; some long-time believers who followed for years withdrew and gave up their belief, and a few were even captured by antichrists. In the face of all this, I was very distressed and puzzled: I have pursued to do the will of God, but how come the work situation still fails to turn better? What is the cause actually?
Just at that time, God’s family distributed a new work arrangement. It says: “What exactly is to carry out the will of God? If the leaders of each level of the church cannot supply all those who have accepted God’s work with the word of God and the truth expressed by God, then they are not serving God. In God’s family there are many works to attend to. The most fundamental one is to help all those who have accepted God’s work to truly understand God’s intention of saving man, enter into all the truths expressed by God, and truly submit to God and worship God…. The truths which must be well watered to the new believers are these: the truths about the three-stage work of God, the truths about the incarnation…. Water all these truths into the depths of the hearts of all who have accepted God’s work and enable them to take root in them, and then we can guarantee that they can stand firm in the true way and will not forsake God or deny God no matter what disturbance from satan the devil they may encounter. Only those who can achieve this result in their work are the ones who serve according to God’s will and the ones who truly carry out the will of God.”
Having read these words, I was suddenly enlightened. Now I know that such a situation of today is caused by my erroneous understanding about “carrying out the will of God.” Truly carrying out the will of God is to water God’s word and the truth expressed by God into the depths of the hearts of all who have accepted God’s work, so as to make them all understand God’s intention to save man, enter into all the truths expressed by God, truly submit to God and worship God, and will not deny God or forsake God no matter what happens to them. But I thought that I would be carrying out the will of God as long as I preached the gospel and brought more people to accept God’s work. Because of this wrong understanding, I only paid attention to preaching the gospel to win more people, but I laid no stress on watering the brothers and sisters with the truth. As a result, when they encountered things against their notions, they became passive and uttered complaints, and even, some forsook God and some were deceived by antichrists, because they did not understand God’s will or know how to experience God’s work. In sustaining the new believers, I only paid attention to using methods and manners, but I never laid stress on supplying them with the truths of the vision such as the three-stage work of God, the incarnation, and so on. As a result, most of the new believers, though they had accepted God’s new work, fell down because they had no vision as their foundation. How could such a service of mine be after God’s heart? And how could it make God’s will be carried out? What God does when incarnated this time is the work of the word. God uses his word to conquer men and perfect men. By the word, God makes men know his work and his intention and truly fulfills his work of perfecting men and gaining men. But I brushed aside the most radical work of God’s family and put all my energy into preaching the gospel to win people. Consequently, many of those who had accepted God’s work forsook God and left the true way because they received no supply of the truth. Was I carrying out the will of God? Obviously I was disrupting God’s work and hindering God’s will from being carried out!
Today, because of my erroneous understanding, I have brought a great loss to the work of God’s family and to the life of the brothers and sisters. Thanks to God’s inspiration, I have understood what it means to truly carry out the will of God. From now on, I will not only pursue to satisfy God in the gospel work, but even more will grasp a most fundamental thing—to water all those who have accepted God’s new work with the truth expressed by God, enabling them to lay a solid foundation and stand firm on the true way. For only when I have achieved this result can it mean that I have truly carried out the will of God.
Shenyang City, Liaoning Province