I remember that not long after I had accepted Almighty God, at one meeting we ate and drank a piece of God’s word “A Very Serious Problem—Betrayal (2),” in which God said: “Although this is so, people’s nature is still rooted in their flesh. That is to say, although your souls have been saved, your nature still remains the same, and the possibility of your rebelling against me is still one hundred percent. The reason why my work lasts for so long is that your nature is too unshakeable.Every one of you may rebel against me and return under satan’s authority, and return to satan’s camp and resume your old life. At that time, you will not possibly have some human flavor and some human likeness as you do now.” After I heard God’s words of exposing man, I immediately had a notion in my mind: Ever since I believed in Jesus, I have been admired and conscientiously easy in everything I do, whether in my contributing and expending for God or in conducting myself in society. I’m definitely a best person in the world. Especially when God’s end-time work was preached to me, I accepted it without resisting or condemning it; and soon after, I began to perform my duty. This is enough to show that I was predestined by God before the ages, and I am surely an object to be perfected by God. No matter who rebels against God, I will never rebel against God. At that time, facing such exposing by God, I couldn’t understand it anyhow. I thought in my heart, “These words of God are probably said to others! How could such a good person as me rebel against God? Others may not love God, but I will absolutely love God.” Yet just when I regarded myself as better and higher than anyone else, I didn’t expect that a gale blew me, a “good person,” to nowhere.
It was a very bleak evening. The sky was dim. The wild wind arose and blew so hard that one could not open his eyes. My two daughters had already come back from school, but my son of primary school hadn’t. Seeing that it was getting darker and the wind was blowing harder, the whole family became desperately anxious. We dialed all our relatives and friends, but no news came. Our neighbors and friends heard this and hurried to my house. They separately went to ask around for my son, but there was still no news. So, in haste I prayed to God, “O Almighty God! All matters and all things are in your hands. Whether or not I can find my child today, there is your good purpose, because it’s you who give and it’s also you who take away.” However, one hour passed and all members of our family communicated with each other saying that the child was not found. Another hour passed, and no news still! At that moment, I got so nervous that I went alone against the gusty wind to search until I came to a river bank in the park. When I saw in the river a small boat overturned by the wind, I couldn’t help feeling a shiver. I thought to myself, “Did my son fall into the water while boating?” The more I thought about it, the more I felt afraid. My heart broke, my legs went limp, and tears gushed from my eyes. My mouth kept muttering, “O son, where are you?” At that time, my look was sorrowful beyond description, and my heart was fully darkened. In my anxiety, a thought suddenly popped into my head: Is Almighty God I believe in a false god? In the past when I believed in Jesus, misfortunes had never happened to me! At that time, I questioned myself repeatedly. And my nature of betraying God welled up within, but I was not aware of that; I was only thinking that what I believed in was false. At that moment, if there was anyone I knew beside me, I would say out any words to resist or blaspheme God. An evil idea arose in my heart: I can’t believe in Almighty God anymore. Not only will I give up the belief, but I will not let my father and sister believe either, because all this misfortune is caused by my belief in Almighty God. Then, angrily, I wiped away the tears on my face and strode to a phone booth. You can imagine how fierce I looked at that time. But just when I picked up the phone and was about to call my father and sister, I suddenly remembered the phone number of one of my son’s classmates. So, with an idea of “try and see,” I dialed that number. To my surprise, I heard my son’s voice of calling “mum”! The moment I heard his voice, I stood there blankly and breathed out a deep breath. A load had finally been taken off my mind. I couldn’t help blurting out: “O Almighty God! Thank you for inspiring me and helping me find my son!” As soon as my words came out, I was suddenly conscious of something, and my just relieved heart became heavy all at once. I could not but think of God’s words that I ate and drank at a meeting: “Those who have no humanity will not at all have a true love for God. When the circumstances are easy or when they can gain profits, they obey God completely. Once their desires are thwarted or are frustrated in the end, they will immediately rise to rebel and will even change from a ‘good-hearted man’ who is all smiles to a ferocious-looking butcher overnight and even treat without reason their benefactor of yesterday as their irreconcilable enemy.” God’s words of judgment went straight to my heart like a sharp sword. A few minutes earlier, as I recalled, I simply had not any humanity, showed my beastly nature, and lost my reason. I couldn’t help asking myself: Is this a good person? Is this the manifestation of a person who loves God? Am I not a real person who betrays God? At that moment, I really felt ashamed, too ashamed to show my face. On the way home, I was not happy because of having found my son, but regretfully gave myself several slaps on the face. When I got home, I shut myself in my room, knelt on the floor and prayed to God, “O Almighty God! Exposed by the fact, I have seen that I have no human likeness in the slightest. Just as you’ve exposed, everyone may betray you at any time and in any place, and even more, has not any element of belief in you. In my practical experience today, I have found that I’m so corrupt and ugly. I’m not a good person at all, let alone a person who loves you, but an insidious and crafty person with a malicious heart! I pursued outwardly in my past expenditures and contributions, disguising myself, and driven by my intent to gain blessings. In the face of the fact, I’m sincerely convinced of your words of exposing man’s nature and even more have made certain that you are not only Jehovah, but also Jesus, and much more the last Christ—Almighty God. O God, I’m really too small, and my faith is too poor. Have mercy on me so that I can receive your inspiration and know that you are precisely the almighty God Godself, and that only your words of judgment can purify me, and even more, enable me to know myself.”
Fuyang City, Anhui Province