In our church there is a host home whose location was convenient to all transportation, so there were often people of the church going to this home. Sometimes people of the first-line team or the second-line team also went to this home for their cooperation in the gospel work. Once, I arranged a gospel meeting of the church in this home. In the course of the meeting, several people of the second-line team also came here to fellowship about their gospel clues. At that time, the Holy Spirit guided me inside: That there are so many people here is against the principle and may easily cause trouble. Yet I thought in my heart: Just this once. We’ll be careful and nothing will happen. After the leader learned this, she also criticized me that I did not do things by the principle, and asked me to find another host home as soon as possible. I agreed with my lips, but in my heart I did not take it seriously. I even said to myself disapprovingly: “The principle is dead, but man is alive! We should not rigidly stick to the regulation but should act according to local conditions. Ours is only a small hilly county town; what could happen? Besides, this house has been used for such a long time. Has anything ever happened to it?” Afterward, I still went my own way, casting behind the matter of looking for another host home.
One day, we five people, I, the second-line director, the gospel deacon, and some others, were again analyzing gospel clues in this host home. Suddenly, several policemen broke in and took the five of us away. Although we, under God’s care and keeping, all came back safe the next day, the church work was thus greatly obstructed, and a great loss was brought to God’s family. Thinking back to what I did, I felt extremely remorseful. All this was caused because I did things not according to the principle, violating it knowingly! In regret, I opened The Summary of Christ’s Preachings and Conversations and read these words of God: “A worker, in doing the work, must pay attention to two points: One point is to work accurately according to the principles stipulated in the work arrangements. You can’t violate the principles. Don’t have your own imaginations. Don’t act according to your own will. Think about the work of God’s family in everything, and put the interests of God’s family above all. The other point, which is also most crucial, is that, in everything, you should be careful to follow the guidance of the Holy Spirit and act strictly according to the word of God. If you can even violate the guidance of the Holy Spirit, and obstinately act according to your own ideas and according to your personal imaginations, this is the most serious resistance against God.” God’s inculcation and earnest admonition made me reproach and hate myself even more. God’s word says very clearly, requiring that in everything we act accurately according to the principles and not have our own imaginations or act according to our own will. However, I, disobedient, did things willfully and had no regard for the principles of God’s family. Though the Holy Spirit had rebuked me inside and the sister had also reminded me many times to act by principles and to find another host home, yet I still went my own way according to my own imaginations and tested God’s nature. As a result, persecution was brought about, which caused an irretrievable loss to God’s family. I was really an arrogant and self-right evildoer who had no respect for God and who disrupted and disturbed the work of God. Now I have deeply realized this: God wishes everyone could listen to his word and obey his every arrangement. Every principle and requirement of God’s family embodies God’s kind intention. Only if we do things strictly according to the principles of God’s family can we receive God’s care and keeping. If one is arrogant and self-right and does not do things according to the principles, he will only invite persecution and danger, disrupt the work of God’s family, and offend God’s nature.
O God! I will never again do things by my own ideas, for I have realized that what my brain produces are only “maggots” and all my thoughts are incompatible with you. From now on, I will, with a heart of fearing you, do everything according to your requirements, obey your guidance, and pursue to be a person who does things by principles and in accordance with the truth.
Weinan City, Shaanxi Province