One day I went to preach the gospel. The gospel friend warmly received me. And she was willing to let me talk to her about the end-time work of God. Seeing this situation, I was very glad, but I also felt very nervous in my heart because I had never talked testimony. What should I do? If only there were someone who could talk testimony today! But… I had no choice but to fellowship with the gospel friend with a nervous mind. After speaking only a few words, I had nothing more to say. Just then, the gospel friend asked me several questions and said that if I could explain to her clearly she would accept this stage of work. Hearing her say so, I became even more nervous and began to speak incoherently. As a result, the more I talked, the drier my words became; and the gospel friend was put in a fog. I reddened with anxiety and sweat kept oozing from my forehead. Half a day passed, but I explained nothing clearly. In the end I had to say to her: “Let’s stop here today, and we will fellowship again some other day.”
On the way home, I thought: How troublesome it is to be unable to talk testimony! Oh, yes, Brother X can talk. Let him go and talk testimony to the gospel friend. So, early next morning, I went to look for this brother. However, I ran around for two days and searched many places but failed to find him. I was so worried that my tears kept streaming down. I could not but complain: “O God, you know I am unable to talk testimony, but why didn’t you help me find this brother? What should I do now?” In my confusion, God’s word reminded me: “You even think that this is being faithful to God. O blind man! Why not come often before me to seek but act blindly by yourself? See clearly! Today the One who works is absolutely not man but the only true God who rules over everything—the Almighty!” “Return before me often. Frankly speaking, now whatever you do, if you don’t return before me, you shall not make it….” O God, I’m really too blind! The One who works today is you—the almighty and only true God. When I had difficulty, however, I didn’t seek you but kept looking for man anxiously and relied on man. No wonder I failed to find the brother these two days. It contains your good purpose. You want to prefect me and let me also exercise to talk testimony. When I knew God’s intention, I immediately prayed to God: “O God! Thank you for your inspiration. I will rely on you and look to you, do my best to cooperate with you, and strive to bring the gospel friend before you.”
After praying, in light of the state of the gospel friend, I found out the relevant truths and carefully ate and drank them over. When I again went to talk to the gospel friend, a result appeared miraculously: An abundance of words of God, like flowing living water, were bestowed to me continuously. I felt as if I had endless words to say, and the gospel friend kept nodding while listening. Then I sang two hymns. After hearing them, she was very happy and said excitedly: “In the past many people talked to me, but I could not take anything in. Today I have understood. This is truly the work of God. I am willing to accept it. Do not go tonight; stay here and talk to me more about God’s will.” Seeing her happy manner, I was very excited, thanking God ceaselessly in my heart.
Through experiencing this matter, I have tasted the sweetness of relying on God and also truly experienced the pleasure of the working of the Holy Spirit. At the same time, I have understood that if one relies on God, everything will be easy to him; if he doesn’t rely on God, he will accomplish nothing. From now on, I will come before God more often and do everything by relying on God.
Luohe City, Henan Province