The leader often fellowshipped with us: “To do our work well, we must do it according to the work arrangements, and we must learn to exalt God and testify about God and exercise solving problems with the truth.” I tried to enter in from this respect, but after a time I felt that few results were produced and it was still the method of lecturing people that achieved quick effects. It was not until I was in an actual experience that I tasted the sweetness of doing the work according to the work arrangements and of solving problems with the truth.
Once at a meeting, we counted the numbers of the people in the churches. We had checked the numbers several times, but the number of that month always couldn’t tally with that of the previous month, either bigger or smaller, and they couldn’t give a reason for that. Then I flared up and said, “How have you done your work? Every time you can’t make the numbers clear. I’ve already fellowshipped with you about the truths of this aspect. Why haven’t you entered into any of them?” Lectured by me this way, they each hung their heads and no one dared to utter a word.
Facing this scene, I felt weary in body and mind and had no strength to continue the fellowship. I just sat silent there, in a trance. At that moment, the Holy Spirit inspired me inside: Isn’t such a circumstance arranged for perfecting you? Then, I remembered these words in the work arrangement: “If a district leader is one who has knowledge of God, he will testify and fellowship about how God loves man, how lovely God is, how righteous God is, how earnest God’s heart to save man is, and how kind God’s heart is. Only by exalting God and testifying about God in such a way can he bring the people before God. If a district leader only talks about letters and doctrines but never testifies to God’s being and God’s loveliness, then the people he leads will be more and more distant from God, and eventually, they all will only understand the letters and doctrines but cannot touch God’s intention or know anything about God’s nature. So, isn’t he a person who resists God?”
At the moment, a flash of light struck me and I felt I had the way to go on. Then I opened the hymnbook and began to read: “God’s earnest hopes is actually met with cold hearts…/met with men’s trampling and rejecting/met with men’s misunderstanding and complaining/ and met with nothing but deception and blows…/Where is men’s conscience?/They have early grieved God’s heart/God came to the world with great elation and joy/But God’s heart could not receive comfort from men for a long time…” “When God sees that people always deceive him, have no will, care for their flesh…, is he not extremely grieved extremely grieved? … If all your children are disobedient and not dutiful to you, are conscienceless and only cared about themselves but never care for your heart, and kick you out of the house when they grow up, how will you feel at such times? Won’t you be full of tears?”
As I was reading, we all couldn’t help shedding tears of self-reproach. And we each began to examine our perfunctoriness in the work and indebtedness to God. We also made a resolve: We will never again do the work perfunctorily, and will be meticulous and careful in everything and console God’s heart with practical actions.
Seeing their change, I was so glad that I did not know what to say. I felt from my heart that it was God’s love that had aroused our cold hearts. At that moment, in the depth of my heart I even more felt indebted to God. In my years of work, I never testified about God’s loveliness and seldom talked about how God loves man; I only communicated some letters and doctrines, causing the brothers and sisters to be more and more distant from God and perform their duties perfunctorily. At the same time, I even more hated myself for trying to solve the states of the sisters by my own corruptions.
Today, I feel the easiness of doing the work according to the work arrangements, and even more tasted the sweetness of solving problems with the truth. Not only do I feel no weary, but in my heart there is a strong force encouraging me to fulfill my duty to comfort God’s heart. From now on, I will do the work according to the work arrangements and solve the difficulties of my own and of the brothers and sisters with the truth.
Guangzhou City, Guangdong Province