At one meeting, according to the requirement from above, the leader asked us to eat and drink God’s word directed at Articles 13 and 14 in The Manual of the Principles for the Church Work, so that every brother and sister would be able to discern the various manifestations of how the false christs, antichrists and the evil spirits deceived people. And she also fellowshipped about some concrete measures to preserve the circumstance. After I returned to the host home from the meeting, I ordered the notes I made at the meeting and then fellowshipped with the host family about the content to be eaten and drunk in that period and about how to resist the disturbances and deceptions from the false christs and antichrists, how to safeguard the circumstance, and so on. As soon as I finished my fellowship, the brother of the host family said admiringly, “As a leader, you are really concerned with the work. It’s really hard that you think so thoroughly about the various matters in the church.” Hearing his words, I felt very happy in my heart and didn’t mention at all that they were the requirements and arrangements from above. But afterward, my heart felt somewhat uneasy and rebuked. So, I came before God to seek and pray.
Later, in the man’s fellowship, “There Are Several Manifestations of Resisting God in Service” I read these words: “No matter what commissions or how many words one receives from above to convey to the below, if he in doing the work conceals the true facts and doesn’t mention at all that they are God’s commissions or the arrangements from above but makes others misunderstand that they are from himself for his purpose to show off, then this is a manifestation of resisting and forsaking God.”
On reading those words, my heart gave a sudden bound: Am I not exactly a person who shows off through implementing the requirements from above? They are obviously the above’s supply and support for people, but when I fellowshipped with the brother and sister, I didn’t explain that to them. As a result, they misunderstood that they were the measures I took based on the problems arising in the church, and so they praised me for having a burden and concern for the work. After hearing their praise, however, I not only didn’t give an explanation promptly so that they would know that they all were the requirements and arrangements from above and give the glory to God, but instead I gave tacit consent to it. I am really base! Today God’s family gave me this commission for me to exalt God, testify about God, and bring all the brothers and sisters to God, so that they can know God’s love for man, God’s salvation for man, God’s beauty and good, and so on, and thus they all will fear God, submit to God, and love God. Yet, I not only did not exalt God and testify about God in my work, but on the contrary, I buried God’s grace and stole God’s glory. I’m too arrogant and too devoid of reason! If I continue like this, I will only bring the brothers and sisters before me to look up to me. In the end, I will become a false shepherd at enmity with God. It is really dangerous!
Thank God for his timely inspiration, which makes me realize that I am too arrogant and conceited by nature and may unconsciously exalt myself, show off myself, and steal God’s glory in doing my work. I have also seen that I am at enmity with God by nature and may do things to resist God at any time and in any place and so be loathed by God. From now on, I will pursue to know God in performing my duty; I will always exalt God and testify about God in doing my work, so as to bring the brothers and sisters before God and give all the glory to God.
Heze City, Shandong Province