When I performed my duty in an article-revising team, the elderly sister of the host family was in poor health, but every day she cooked the meals on time and got them ready on the table for us, and she also did all the housework. For all that she did, I held such a view: Now is the Age of the Kingdom and God requires everyone to perform his own function. Revising articles is my duty, and hosting us and doing the housework are her duty. Thus, I never helped the elderly sister even wash the dishes, and I thought it was not within my work.
For a few days, the elderly sister didn’t wash the pots and dishes until she started to cook the next meal. Seeing that, I thought: How come the elderly sister has such a bad habit? Later, I learned that when cold weather came, her arms would ache often. Many times she cooked the meals with pain, and then she had to rest for a couple of hours before she could work again. Normally, I should have helped her do some housework after I learned that situation. But I still acted as usual. After finishing the meal I left the table leaving my bowl and chopsticks there. It was not only so. When the sister who coordinated with me helped the elderly sister wash dishes, I even said, “We can’t help her; if we help her often, she will always expect us to do the housework. In that case, it will hold up our own duty.” Just like that, I stuck to my viewpoint all along and didn’t think it was improper.
One morning during my spiritual devotions, I read these words of God: “Seeing that the age has now changed, many people pay no attention to humility or patience anymore, and they simply do not have any love or any propriety of a saint anymore. Such people are too absurd! Do they have any normal humanity? Do they have any testimony? They simply don’t have any sense or reason.” My heart couldn’t help getting a shock. Am I not such an absurd person as God speaks of? I think that now is the Age of the Kingdom and God requires everyone to perform his own function, so it is enough as long as I do my best to revise the articles, and doing the housework is the duty of the host family and has nothing to do with me. When I learned that the elderly sister cooked us meals with suppressed pain, I still spared no time to help her do some housework and I even said some “noble” words to stop my work partner from helping her. I was really selfish and mean and had no propriety of a saint at all.
I also read these words in the man’s fellowship: “There are some people who can’t get along with others…. They don’t even have any human kindness that a normal person should possess, and in their heart they only know to do the work quickly…. They seem to know nothing else. When in contact with others, they don’t show any love; and others do not feel any warmth from them but rather some ruthlessness as if they were cold-blooded killers. Behaving this way, how can they do the work well?” I felt even more ashamed, too ashamed to show my face. The elderly sister was in old age and also ill, but she could put the work of God’s family above everything else and cooked us the meals with pain. However, except to revise the articles, I didn’t show any love in my practical life. I was never considerate to the elderly sister and never thought of helping her do something as I could; I was ruthless like a cold-blooded killer and had no human kindness. To a man who helped me I could not be grateful and repay. Then how much of God’s love could I taste and repay? As I had such humanity, could I really perform my duty well to satisfy God?
O God, Thank you for exposing me, and so I’ve seen my absurdness and the defect in my humanity. From now on, I will correct my erroneous practice and pursue to be a person who has the truth and humanity.
Weinan City, Shaanxi Province