Since I accepted the end-time work of the Almighty God, I have been performing my duty away from home. But because I was too emotional and could not drop my husband and son, whether or not I was busy with work, I went home to see them at intervals. I knew that my going home every time would disturb my heart and affect my performing duty, but I could not overcome it. Thus, I took this oath before God many times: O God! If I still care for my family and hanker after fleshly enjoyment and can’t drop my husband and son, curse our whole family and let us be killed by a truck or by thunderbolts…. However, because nothing happened to us, I still gave in to myself and went home again and again on some pretext or other.
One afternoon, I went home again on the pretext of fetching something. When I was nearing our house, I saw many people standing before our gate. It seemed that something had happened to my family. Then I made a detour and entered the house by the back door. Upon seeing me, my husband said, “A dangerous thing happened just now. I was sitting in the house when suddenly a big truck ran straight toward our gate and nearly broke in. I was petrified with fear. The door was wrecked. If it were not for God’s keeping, I’m afraid I could never see you again.” Hearing his words, I was perfectly clear that it was God’s keeping and even more God’s love in wrath. After a short while, lightning flashed and thunder rumbled outside, and instantly it began to rain cats and dogs. Suddenly, there was a tremendous crash shaking heaven and earth, and then a ball of white light bigger than a washbasin flashed beside the TV set, which was about one meter away from me. I trembled in terror, and could not help thinking of the oath I had taken before God. Then I remembered God’s words: “I am a jealous God, and I am a God jealous of man. Since you have presented your words before my altar, I won’t allow you to run away from my eyes…. Do you think that your oaths have passed away? I tell you, even if your flesh passes away, your oaths will not pass away. At the end of the time, I will condemn you according to your oaths. …”
The scene before my eyes frightened me, but God’s stern words of judgment frightened me even more. I could not but fall prostrate before God: O God! What has happened in my home today is your righteous nature coming upon me, and even more your warning to me, for I have no fear of you. I took the oath before you time after time, but when my own desire came up I always violated my oath. Wasn’t I testing your nature? Today, you showed me the flames of fire of heaven and yet did not have the heart to burn me. This is your great tolerance for me, is an opportunity you give me to repent and make a fresh start, and even more is your great salvation for me. How could I not offer thanks and praise to you? If it were not for your warning, I would become more and more audacious, and my disobedience and transgressions would increase more and more. And in the end I would be brought into hell by my own transgressions. O God! In this experience, I have not only seen your nature majestic and wrathful and intolerant of man’s offense, but even more seen your love and mercy. From now on, I will take this as a warning, watch my step at all times, and keep my mind on fulfilling my duty to requite the grace of your salvation for me.
Jurong City, Jiangsu Province