One day in December 2002, I was testifying about God’s work to a gospel friend when suddenly my family paged me that my father fell critically ill and kept calling my name and that the whole family were expecting me. At the news, I felt my heart cut and became restless. And I had no heart to continue the testifying. I thought: I have already let father down by leaving the family and giving up my career; before he dies I must see him for the last time. But then I thought of this great gospel clue. It took a great effort to bring the gospel friend here. How can I give up? At this time, I was faced with, on one side, the gospel friend who urgently needed to be saved, and on the other side, my dying father who was expecting me at home. What should I do? My heart was in a torment, engaged in a fierce struggle. I could not but have thoughts of complaining: O God, why have you manipulated so? If I weren’t testifying, I certainly could go home. But if I go back now, this gospel clue will possibly be wasted….
It was late at night and my heart still could not be calm. Then, my family sent another message to my pager, urging me to go back quickly. I got so worried that I kept weeping and my spirit was almost broken. After I prayed to and petitioned God many times, I suddenly remembered God’s words: “…when you encounter something and you have to undergo suffering, you should try to understand what is God’s will and how you should care for God’s will, you should not satisfy yourself but drop yourself first as the flesh is a lowest thing, and you should seek to satisfy God and should fulfill your duty.” “Do you know the heavy task on your shoulders, your commission, and your responsibility? … Have you ever thought how grieved and worried God’s heart is? How could he bear to see the innocent mankind he created with his own hands suffering such torment? … Have you forgotten that you were one of the victims? Are you not willing to try hard to save all these survivors because of loving God? Are you not willing to exert all your strength to repay the God who loves man as his own flesh and blood?” God’s words made me have a sense of direction, understand God’s intention, and know what to do to satisfy God, and at the same time they gave me inexhaustible strength. My heart became much calmer and I felt the burden on my shoulders was heavier. Then I prayed to God, “O Almighty God, thank you for your such manipulation and arrangement. I have known that this is your trial coming upon me. I will rebel against the flesh and care for your will and uphold the testimony for you. I will fulfill my duty! O God, man’s life is in your hand. Even if I go back, I cannot save my father. I am willing to commit everything to you and quiet my heart before you to complete the commission you have given me.” After the prayer, I was greatly comforted and felt much relieved in my heart.
The next day, I continued to testify to the gospel friend about God’s work, until it was finished. Later I learned that from that very night, my father miraculously began to get better. And now his health has returned to normal. Thank God and praise God! All the glory goes to the Almighty God!
Weifang City, Shandong Province