I perform my duty in a poor, remote place. One night, I suddenly woke up from my dream, coughing and panting and feeling uncomfortable all over. It’s bad! My allergic asthma recurred. Why did it come so abruptly? I sat up at once and did not dare to lie down again. A few minutes later, it got more serious and I even had difficulty in breathing. I was terrified, thinking, “Now I’m finished. There is no clinic or doctor here, and it is so late at night; what shall I do? If it goes on like this, won’t I be choked to death?” The more I thought about it, the more I felt afraid. My heart thumped as if it leaped into my throat…. When I felt helpless and desperate, God’s words arose in my mind: “Who among the whole mankind is not watched over in the eyes of the Almighty? Who does not live in the Almighty’s predestination? Does man’s life and death originate from his own choice? Is man’s destiny controlled by himself?” God’s words roused me suddenly. Yes! Isn’t my life in God’s hand? Without God’s permission, I won’t be able to die even if I want to! Isn’t the coming of the illness manipulated and arranged by God? What shall I have to worry about if I commit my all into God’s hand? God’s words gave me strength and faith. My heart became much calmer and I was no longer that fearful. I knelt before God and prayed, “O God, the heavens, the earth, and all things are in the hand of you, the Almighty. My life and death is also in your hand. I am only a tiny created being. My life was bestowed by you. If you want to take it back, I cannot have my own choice, even less complain against you. Whatever you do is righteous.” After praying like this, I felt very assured in my heart, and my worry and fear were cleared away. I drifted off to sleep. In the morning when I got up, I felt all right, as if nothing had happened.
Through this small experience, I believed more firmly that man’s destiny is in God’s hand and that God rules over everything. And it strengthened my resolve to walk to the end on the path of belief in God.
Jinzhou City, Liaoning Province