Some time ago, we needed to select a leader for the newly established small district. According to the principles for selecting leaders, there was a brother suitable for the position. So, I was going to promote him to be the small-district leader.
One day, when having a talk with this brother, he said that he felt I was too critical and too harsh in supervising his work, and that he did not have much enjoyment when having meetings together with me…. Hearing these words, I felt myself belittled and was extremely distressed in my heart. I immediately had an ill view of this brother and no longer planed to promote him to be the small-district leader.
When back to the host home, I still felt pretty choked with what the brother said, and my heart could not calm down somehow. At that moment, I remembered these words in the work arrangement “The Duty-neglecting and Reckless Leaders Must Be Replaced”: “How a leader should treat the brothers and sisters who are not to his liking, and how he should treat those who oppose him and who have opinions contrary to his—this is truly a serious issue, which should be treated cautiously. If a leader has not entered the truth on this issue, he will definitely exclude and attack others when encountering this kind of things. Such a practice is exactly the expression of the great red dragon’s nature of resisting God and rebelling against God. If a leader pursues the truth and has conscience and reason, he will seek the truth and treat this matter properly. … We should conduct ourselves fairly and justly. A leader must do things according to God’s word so that he can stand for God’s testimony. If he does everything by his own ideas and follow his own corrupt nature, then he will meet an utter failure.”
After reading these words, I could not but recall the two totally different attitudes I held toward the brother before and after I talked with him. At first I intended to promote this brother to be the small-district leader, but when in a talk with him he said a few words that hurt my face, I changed my view of him at once and did not plan to promote him. Is my practice different from the great red dragon’s excluding and attacking its dissidents? God’s family is different from the world; God’s family wants those who have humanity and who love and accept the truth to be the leaders of each level of the church. But what I did completely ran counter to God’s intention. In selecting people, I only considered my own interests, and when what others said was not to my liking, I wanted to exclude them and take revenge on them. Wasn’t such practice of mine exactly the expression of the great red dragon’s nature of resisting God and rebelling against God? By doing so, wasn’t I disrupting God’s work and at enmity with God? Wasn’t my heart too malicious? Now God’s family is in need of capable people, and this brother is a suitable candidate to be the small-district leader. When his opinion of me is not after my heart, I even more should seek the truth in this matter, take his opinion and examine myself to know myself, so as to make up for my deficiencies in doing the work. However, I did not try to find the faults in myself, but followed my satanic nature to reject and requite him. I was too arrogant and too lacking in humanity! Such a nature of mine was really loathed by God. If I allowed this corrupt nature to continue, in the end I will surely offend God’s nature and receive God’s punishment. It is so horrible!
At the moment, I could not help feeling frightened for my own thoughts and ideas. I saw that I was full of the poison of the great red dragon and all my expressions were at enmity with God and were really hated and loathed by God.
O God, thank you for your timely inspiration. It had stopped me taking revenge on others, and even more enabled me to see my malicious nature and my satanic image of being at enmity with you. From now on, I will pursue the transformation of my nature. When encountering people or matters against my liking, I will learn to drop myself and forsake my flesh. I will try to safeguard the interests of God’s family in everything, and fulfill my duty that I should fulfill.
Xintai City, Shandong Province