Two brothers are hosted in my home. A few days ago, one of them caught a sudden cold and it was very serious. Then I thought: You should go home quickly to see a doctor. If you give your cold to our whole family, we will get into trouble. So, I said to the other brother, “Just let him go home and see a doctor.” As a result, that brother really went away. However, on the next day after he went, our whole family and the other brother all had a cold.
On the third day, my daughter brought some tablets from the factory she worked in. When my family sister (my wife) wanted to give some to the brother, I hastened to stop her by saying, “These are good medicines and they are so expensive. Don’t give him. Let’s keep them for ourselves.” But my wife did not listen to my words and determinedly gave some to the brother. After taking the medicines one or two times, the brother recovered from his cold. I, however, took the medicines for several days, and yet my condition did not turn any better. I felt puzzled: How come the others have recovered while I haven’t? Have I offended God somewhere and thus been disciplined by God? One day, I opened The Summary of Christ’s Preachings and Conversations, and read these words of God: “Some people are terribly selfish, to an especially serious degree. This represents their inherent nature. People all have selfishness but there is a difference. Some people, when being with others, can take care of and show consideration for others, can show concern for others, and can think of others in everything. But some people are different. When doing hosting, they are very selfish…. Such a person does not consider others at all. When other people come, it is good enough if she allows them to lodge. When they fall ill or have some difficulty, she does not give the slightest thought to it, as if she did not see it. She does not consider or care for others at all. She only knows to consider herself and her family. This selfish inherent nature of hers decides that she is unwilling to consider others. She feels that consideration for others causes loss and mental fatigue.” God’s words struck my heart. Only then did I find that I am exactly such a selfish-natured person as God spoke of. When the first brother suffered from a cold, I never thought to care for or show consideration to him; what I considered was the interests of my own and my family, and I even drove him out of my home. When the other brother had a cold, I still considered myself, and I even grudged him the tablets. My inherent nature is too selfish! My humanity is too bad! God is a God who searches hearts and minds; how could my mind and thoughts and my every act and move escape from God’s eyes? Today, I take the good medicines but my condition has not turned better; this is God’s discipline, which has come upon me. It has enabled me to see God’s righteousness, and see that I am worse than a beast and do not have any flavor of a man. O God, thank you for disciplining and exposing me so that I have gained a little knowledge of my selfish inherent nature. From now on, I will try to know myself more deeply in your words that disclose man’s inherent nature, rebel against my inherent nature in performing my duty, and pursue to be a person who has humanity.
Lianyungang City, Jiangsu Province