Some time ago, because the false christs worked wildly, God’s family required us to fellowship clearly about the truths concerning the vision with the brothers and sisters lest they be deceived by false christs. When I heard that, I thought to myself: Although most of the brothers and sisters in our church are old and have poor understanding ability, I will by all means cooperate well with this work.
One day, I came to a small group to eat and drink with the brothers and sisters this piece of God’s word, “The Word Accomplishes Everything.” In light of Three Hundred Questions & Answers on the Truth in Christ’s Word, I fellowshipped about the question “Why does God not perform signs and wonders?” I read the answer of God’s words, and then fellowshipped according to God’s words. After that, I asked the brothers and sisters why God did not perform signs and wonders, but they could not answer. So, I fellowshipped for a few more times. But when I asked them again, they still could not answer. Now I became a little impatient: “They’re too poor in quality; they will not understand no matter how many times I fellowship. I may as well apply a quick and simple memorial method: to sum up these truths and just ask them to memorize them.” Then, I began to fellowship summarily about the question by this method. When I finished my fellowship and asked them again, they all answered exactly according to what I had summed up. When I heard that, I felt very satisfied, thinking, “This method does achieve a quick result.” Thereafter, in every meeting I summed up the truths before fellowshipping with the brothers and sisters. A week later, however, I felt dryness and no enjoyment in the meetings. Yet, I did not know what the matter was.
One day, in God’s fellowship, I read these words: “In ‘summing up the truths’ that way, you were not making people gain life and the transformation of their nature from the truths, but making them grasp some knowledge and some doctrines from these truths. They seem to have understood the purpose of God’s work, but actually, they have only grasped some doctrines and letters and have not understood the internal meaning. This is just like studying theology and reading the Bible. … You feel that doing so makes the words easier for the people below to understand, and that not only can they memorize them easily but these questions are clear at a glance. You think it quite good to do so, but what they have understood is not the true internal meaning, does not match the reality, and is only letters and doctrines. Therefore, it would be better if you had not done these things. In doing so you were leading people to understand knowledge and grasp knowledge. You have led them into doctrines and into religion, causing them all to follow and believe in God in religious doctrines. Aren’t you a person like Paul? … Such a leader really does great harm to people!”
After reading this passage, I could not help feeling fear for what I had done. Today God’s family requires us to fellowship clearly about the truths concerning the vision with the brothers and sisters in order that they can have discernment about the false christs’ fallacies and avoid being deceived by the false christs. However, when I saw the brothers and sisters are poor in quality and a little slow in understanding, I summed up the truths by my own ideas and asked the brothers and sisters to memorize them by rote according to my summaries, instead of relying on God to fellowship about the truths with them patiently. Although they remembered my summaries at once, yet they have only mechanically memorized some letters and doctrines; they have not understood the internal meaning of God’s words nor had any true knowledge of God’s work, even less gained any truth from God’s words. In this case, if they should encounter a false christ’s deception, how could these letters and doctrines keep them standing? In doing so, was I not delaying the brothers and sisters from equipping themselves with the truths and doing harm to them? Only then did I realize that such a practice of mine was really too harmful. God’s words are the truth and the life and are very deep and cannot be fathomed by man. They can by no means be summarized by me with some letters and doctrines. However, I dared to sum up the truths according to my own ideas. Wasn’t this an act of offending God’s nature? I was really so arrogant that I was devoid of sense. Now I see that although I have followed God for several years, I do not have any knowledge of God’s nature nor have any fear of God, so that I have unconsciously done a thing of resisting and offending God. I am really in great danger, and I cannot control myself at all.
O God, in your words, I have seen that I am by nature too arrogant and do not have any fear of you, and that what I have done is too detestable and hateful to you. O God, I have been corrupted by satan too deeply. May your chastisement and judgment come severely upon me, so that I can have a deeper knowledge of my arrogant nature. From now on, I will spend more effort on your word, pursue to have knowledge of your nature, have a heart of fearing you at all times, perform my duty properly, and walk the path of belief in you carefully.
Linyi City, Shandong Province