One day in April 2003, I was watching TV news. Suddenly there was the news that SARS(a terrible epidemic) had begun to spread throughout the country and especially in Guangdong Province, the number of people infected with the virus had already run to thousands…. Then I immediately thought of my husband and children who were working in Guangdong. A sensation of fear swept over me instantly: Are they infected? Is God sending the disaster to destroy them? Thinking of that, I felt as if death would come upon my husband and children at any time. For this, I worried very much and was uneasy to eat and sleep. At the thought that I might never see them again, I couldn’t help but pray to God in tears, “O God! May you pity and save my husband and children. If you really have them die, let them come home and enjoy the life for some time before they die. Dying at home is always better than dying outside.” After the prayer, my heart was still not at rest. Then I phoned to urge them to come home, but they didn’t take SARS seriously at all. In the evening, seeing that I looked worried and pensive, the two sisters who stayed in my home wanted to know what was the matter with me, but I didn’t want to tell them anything. They fellowshipped about God’s word with me, yet I couldn’t take in a word but kept weeping, feeling that I would lose my husband and children soon.
At over eleven o’clock that night, seeing me weeping and my eyes red and swollen, the two sisters, with difficulty, got to know the cause through inquiry. Then they fellowshipped with me patiently and took the man’s fellowship and asked me to read: “Some muddled people also show sympathy and pity when seeing the gentiles suffering disasters, and they even shamelessly beseeched God to keep them from the disasters. To their unbelieving wives (husbands), children, relatives, and friends, they show even more sympathy, often offering up prayers for them and asking God to save them and protect them. Such a behavior of sympathizing with devils and seriously forsaking God is hateful to God. They believe in God to such a muddled extent that they pray for their unbelieving devils for blessings. They are really too absurd to be corrected and don’t even have any basic truths. Don’t you know that the unbelieving people, whether they are your parents, your wife (husband), or children, are devils if they don’t believe in God? To the devils, if you don’t curse or hate them, then you have already been on the devils’ side and have completely forsaken God. If calamities come and various disasters take their lives, how will you act then? Will you have any testimony? Probably some people cannot forsake the devils because of their strong emotion and want to perish along with the devils. Such a kind of people are even more unworthy of pity because they have no truth and should be punished.” After reading this passage, I woke up. Now I know that disasters are controlled by God. The great red dragon tortures us to this day, and now God punishes the unbelievers and evildoers through SARS. This is God’s righteousness. But I was so muddled that I not only didn’t feel happy for that, but I shamelessly prayed for my unbelieving husband and children, asking God to pity and save them. Wasn’t I too sentimental? I little know that the unbelieving relatives are all devils and are all the objects to be destroyed in the future. If I sympathize with them and pity them, am I not standing on satan’s side and rebelling against God seriously? Some day when disasters really come upon them and take their lives away, then won’t I revile God because of their death? At that time, won’t I perish together with devils because of my strong emotions?”
Having realized the bitter fruit that sympathy for the devils would bring me, I no longer worried about the life and death of my husband and children. I dried my eyes and knelt before God to pray, “O Almighty God! I really thank you. It is you who have made me realize that if you are to eliminate my fleshly family today, it is of your righteousness. At the same time, you also have made me realize that my fleshly emotions were too strong and I had no truth so that I couldn’t see clearly your work of punishing the great red dragon. O God! From now on, no matter what disasters you send, I will never again worry about the life and death of my husband and children, because whether they are dead or alive is manipulated in your hand. I only wish to abandon my emotions and bear the testimony when you test my faith. The more disasters you send, the more I will praise your righteousness!”
Chenzhou City, Hunan Province