At one meeting, the leader fellowshipped with us, saying, “Now, God’s family requires us to enter into The Practical Problems of Several Aspects that Must Be Resolved in Church Life. Everyone must answer these questions. This is God’s requirement for us and it’s also God’s present intention.” After hearing the fellowship, I thought in my heart: I am preaching the gospel all day, and how can I get time to answer these questions? Isn’t it good enough that every day I read God’s words in light of my state? Is it necessary to answer these questions? In my opinion, it is the same whether to answer the questions or not. Though the leader fellowshipped about it repeatedly, I still held my own view and put aside the matter of answering the questions. In the daytime I preached the gospel, and in the evening I read God’s words directed at my state as usual.
After a period of time, I found that my state had worsened. I received no inspiration when reading God’s word, and felt drowsy when I took the book of God’s word in my hand; I achieved no result in the work and I felt dizzy all day; I was even confused about what I should enter into, and my previous visions and resolutions all disappeared.
Just when I became weak to a certain extent, I, guided by God, read a passage of God’s word: “Since you believe in God, you have to obey consistently. You should not just obey when you are happy but do not obey when you are not happy. God does not approve such obedience. If when I fellowship about a new work, you cannot follow and still hold on to the former saying, then can your life grow? When God works, he supplies you by speaking words. If you obey and accept them, the Holy Spirit will surely work on you.… Some people are not convinced, saying, ‘I won’t practice according to your words.’ Then I say that you will have no way, dry up, and have no life now.”
God’s words woke me up suddenly. Now I knew that recently I received no inspiration when reading God’s word and my state was not good and all these were caused by my disobedience to God. When God works, he supplies people by speaking words. The Holy Spirit works according to what God speaks and what God requires of people. If one submits to the present words of God, the Holy Spirit will work on him at once. In this period, the above arranged for us to enter into The Practical Problems of Several Aspects that Must Be Resolved in Church Life. Since the above has made such a requirement, these truths are certainly what our life needs most at this stage. If I had obeyed the arrangement and practiced entering into these truths immediately, I would surely have received the working of the Holy Spirit and also gained his inspiration and enlightenment, and would have had God’s blessing accompanying me in performing my duty. However, I was so disobedient that after I heard the arrangement from above I never intended to obey it and put it into practice; on the contrary, I thought that it would be enough as long as I could read God’s word to correct my bad state, and that it did not matter whether or not to answer the questions. Despite the leader’s constant fellowship and urging, I clung to my old way of practice, avoiding the path led by the Holy Spirit and going another way. I was really too arrogant and self-right and also too foolish and ignorant! Since I do not obey the work arrangement of God’s family, I am a person outside the stream of the Holy Spirit. How then can I have the way to practice and my spirit not be withered? How can I grow in life and receive God’s blessing in my work?
O God, thank you for inspiring and enlightening me with your words, and so have realized that only by obeying the work arrangements of God’s family can I receive the working of the Holy Spirit. O God, I am willing to keep up with the work of the Holy Spirit, and immediately enter into The Practical Problems of Several Aspects that Must Be Resolved in Church Life, so as to be an obedient person.
When I obeyed and practiced the work arrangement of God’s family, I gained the working of the Holy Spirit again, and my state also turned better gradually.
Fengcheng City, Liaoning Province