Not long ago, I arranged with a brother to talk testimony to a gospel friend in two days. When I heard that the other party was a preacher, eloquent and well versed in the Bible, and she was also very arrogant and even asked to see our leader, I flinched, “We two can’t make it. We are ordinary in appearance, poor in quality, and unskilled in speech, and the gospel friend will certainly look down upon us. If we go to talk to her, we are bound to bungle the job. We’d better find from elsewhere a tall person with good quality to talk to her.” So, I dialed the first telephone number to ask for help. The other side said, “No! I am busy these two days.” I had no choice but to wait until the next afternoon. But then I could not contact him no matter how I tried. In my disappointment, I turned to another target. On the phone, the other side said that he was about to go out. He asked me to find some “better person” and gave me a phone number. Full of hope, I dialed the number, but I was told that the person I wanted was not in. At that time, I, numb, was still unaware that God was dealing with me. Then I placed my hope on a brother revising articles. Unexpectedly, when I got to his abode, the host family told me, “He’s just left and won’t be back until tomorrow afternoon.” The only ray of hope was shattered. Instantly, I felt weak and limp all over, and complaints kept welling up in my heart: “God! I’ve racked my brain to find someone elsewhere to cooperate in the gospel clue to satisfy you, but why don’t you open a way out for me? Why have you even cut off my last way? …” Seeing it was dark and thinking the next day was the time agreed upon with the gospel friend, I felt anxious and depressed….
Just when I was upset, God’s words inspired me: “God’s life power can overcome all power and even more surpass all power. His life is perpetual, and his power is supernatural. No created being and no hostile power can overpower his life power.” God’s words, like a bright lamp in the dark, lighted up the way ahead of me. Yes! God’s life power can prevail over any other power and can overcome any force of darkness. However lofty the gospel friend is, isn’t she in God’s hand? Why did I not look to God and rely on God but fix my eyes on those “lofty” ones? Although I am ordinary in appearance, poor in quality, and clumsy-tongued, aren’t God’s almightiness and wisdom my powerful backing? Isn’t God’s word the most powerful weapon to conquer the religious world? Aren’t God’s power and authority the reliable guarantee for us to bring people into his presence? Yes! I must look to God and rely on God and let God be the sovereign. Immediately, I felt assured in my heart and had support, and my complaints and anxieties vanished into air. In shame I came before God: O God! I am too blind and ignorant! I believe in you but did not know to rely on you; on the contrary, I tried to rely on those “lofty” ones. You dealt with me again and again, yet I not only did not wake up but even complained against you. I’ve really disappointed your kind intention. O God! I will no longer rely on man; I will rely on you to talk testimony. May you personally guide us….
The next day, when the brother and I testified in coordination, we earnestly looked to God and relied on God in one accord. Although the gospel friend was very arrogant, yet owing to the working of the Holy Spirit she had to bow her haughty head before the truth. Two days later, she gladly accepted this stage of God’s work. Thanks be to God! Through this I’ve experienced that, to look to God and rely on God is the only way out. To the Almighty God be all the glory!
Nanyang City, Henan Province