In the past, I often heard the leader fellowship that we should pay attention to our living out of humanity in our daily life, but I always thought that was something outside the truth and was nothing important. Later, through God’s exposing me time and again, I came to know that living out a normal humanity is God’s requirement and is one aspect of the transformation of nature.
Once, the sister in charge of the work came to the host home where I stayed. When she saw my room was in a mess, she said, “Is this like a room of a sister? Since the host family has given us a room, we should keep it tidy and live out a normal humanity. Otherwise, we’ll have a bad influence on them….” As she spoke, she began to put my things in order. But I paid no attention to it, thinking, “I’m not so superficial as you, and I do not have so much leisure as you have to do this. You always pay attention to such outward things, as if you were a hygiene inspector.” As I gained no knowledge in this respect, God exposed me once again.
Before long, I was transferred to an article-revising team. As I stayed in the host home and contacted the brothers and sisters every day, my lack in humanity was thoroughly exposed. One day, a sister came to us. She said, “Look, your bed is so messy. You work here every day; why do you not keep it tidy?” At her reminding, I saw that on the creased sheet were articles, books, and clothes. At that moment, I really felt a loss of face, thinking, “I’ll give my bed a good tidying and not let others speak to me again.” Just two days later, the sister found my desk and bookcase were in a mess. As she tidied them, she said, “Today, God works to transform us; we should not only be transformed inwardly, but our outward human living should also be transformed. Such things as tidying up our rooms and paying attention to hygiene are all in the realm of living out a normal humanity, and they involve God’s testimony.” At that moment, I felt embarrassed as if a needle was pricking my heart, and I really did not know where to hide my face.
Then, I remembered God’s words: “You lack too much in humanity, live too low a life, have no humanity, and lack insight. So, you need to equip yourselves with the things concerning humanity. Having a conscience, having sense, having insight, speaking properly, judging things properly, paying attention to hygiene, and having the likeness of a normal man, all these are knowledge about normal humanity. If you act properly in these aspects, it means that your humanity is up to the standard.” Only then did I realize that I have been corrupted by satan too deeply, and I lack too much in humanity, live too low a life, and do not have any likeness of a normal man. Though God exposed me again and again and the sisters admonished me several times, I did not take it seriously, thinking that it was something outward and had nothing to do with the truth. I was really too absurd! Fortunately, today God has come to do the work of salvation, to completely change man’s mental outlook, backward thoughts, and low habits of life, thereby restoring man’s normal life. Otherwise, today I would not have realized that I lack insight, do not have the likeness of a normal man, and still live a low life. O God, thank you for your exposing, which has caused me to know the importance of living out a normal humanity, and realize that living out a normal humanity is becoming to a saint and is also what I should enter into at present. From now on, I will rebel against the flesh and put this aspect of truth into practice, so as to live out the likeness that a normal man should have.
Jiangjin City, Sichuan Province