Not long after I accepted this stage of work, uplifted by God, I began to perform the duty of hosting. At first my daughter didn’t mind it, but later things changed. Because there were often brothers and sisters coming to my home, she had a great aversion to it and raised hell with me, forcing me to turn away the brothers and sisters. Seeing that I didn’t listen to her, she threatened me, “If you don’t do as I say, I will end my relationship with you. I won’t help you do farm work anymore, nor take any more care of you two!” (We old couple only have this one daughter in our lives. Usually, we listened to anything she said, for we counted on her to do all our farm work.) Hearing her words, I was in a dilemma: What should I do? Am I to end my relationship with her because of my belief in God? We only have this one daughter; we can’t live without her. At that time, I was weak to such an extent that I even wanted to leave God. But then I thought, “Am I to give up my belief in God for daughter’s sake? No, I can’t do that. On looking back, for more than half my lifetime I was accompanied by tears (because I was looked down on by others for having no son). Ever since I followed the Almighty God, I spend every day in singing. It is truly that my grief has changed into happiness. It is the Almighty God who has brought me the true human life. If I don’t cooperate with God and perform my duty properly, then do I have the slightest conscience?” Thus, I turned the matter over and over in my mind, neither wanting to leave God nor wanting to leave my daughter.
In the painful refining, I opened the book of God’s word and read these words: “You should think of the work of the church, give up the future of your flesh, make prompt decisions concerning your family affairs, put your whole heart and being into God’s work, and put God’s work in the first place and your living in the second place. Only this is a style a saint should have.” “Will you still not know how you can comfort my heart? What are you choosing now?” God’s words bearing authority and power made my heart give a great bound. In order to gain man’s love and man’s heart, God has endured humiliation to come to save us. Can’t I make a prompt decision when facing my family affairs? Can’t I put God’s work in the first place? If I choose my daughter and turn away the brothers and sisters, doesn’t that mean I give up my duty? Isn’t giving up my duty rejecting God? Though daughter can help me do some farm work, can she bring me true happiness? Can she bring me the true human life? When I thought of this, my mind became clear: In no way should I give up my duty for fear of losing my daughter. I cannot forget God’s love to me for the sake of my personal gain. I should choose God, commit my all to God, and continue performing the duty of hosting to comfort God’s heart.
After I chose so, my daughter changed. When seeing the brothers and sisters, she talked and laughed with them as if they were our family members. And sometimes she even cooperated with us. Seeing all that, I deeply realized this: It will never be wrong to choose God!
Shangqiu City, Henan Province