In October 2000, God’s family assigned me to go home to preserve the circumstances. I thought: I cannot contact the worldly people lest I fall into satan’s temptation and offend God. In the first days after I got home, when my peers invited me to roam about the town with them, I could make various excuses and refuse them by wisdom. Some time later, however, satan began to give me thoughts: “Why be so rigid? Don’t pay attention to the outward practice. It will do as long as you have God in your heart.” Thus, I began to contact them. I strolled through the markets, watched videos, visited relatives and friends, and attended weddings and funerals more and more frequently. Little by little, I began to indulge myself and act unrestrainedly; I felt it really “releasing and freeing” to chat and laugh and jest with them. The worldly life occupied and attracted my heart, and the line of defense against satan in my heart was totally shattered. In consequence, I had no desire to read the word of God, I prayed as a formality without any enjoyment, and I felt darkened and depressed in my spirit.
One day, in boredom I opened the book of God’s word, and I was captured by some words in “Working and Entering In (3).” God’s word says: “Although sometimes people can receive the inspiration of the Holy Spirit, their original thoughts, temperaments, lifestyle, and habits are still rooted in them, so their inborn nature still does not change. … Things such as wedding feasts or dowries prepared by the young people; statements and sayings about tips, banquets, and other things concerning wedding; old sayings handed down; and all meaningless superstitious activities performed for the dead and for funerals, are even more loathed by God. … The customary dealings and worldly contacts between people are even more detested by God…. They are actually all invisible ropes with which satan binds people from knowing God, and are satan’s schemes.” When I read here, I got a shock. Thinking about my doings and actions during this period, I was scared into a cold sweat. Haven’t I been tricked by satan? Because of my love and hankering for the world, I have fallen deeply into the trap of satan and cannot extricate myself. I have unconsciously fallen into the snare of the “world,” and in the “happiness of being free and released,” I have nearly been devoured by satan. I deeply realized that just through the small worldly things satan tempts man, causing man’s relationship with God to become more and more distant, and ruins man’s life in the end. It is really terrible!
After this experience, I came to understand God’s kind intention: Man has been corrupted by satan too deeply to withstand the worldly temptations, so God requires man to stay away from the world. This is God’s keeping and real love for man.
Tengzhou City, Shandong Province