235 Repenting and Making a Fresh Start
Verse 1
Why did I not wake up?
Why did I not wake up?
I gave everything for status and fame;
I worked and preached, trying to build up my name,
not living out God’s words, only living for reward.
God’s words called out to me, but I hardened my heart.
So many desires and needs,
acting selfishly, despicably,
how could I have heard God
and His teachings to us?
Pre-chorus
Oh God! I have hurt You so deeply.
I’m too ashamed to live in Your presence,
enjoying Your love, enjoying Your love.
Chorus
I can’t bear to look back on the things of my past,
it was all ugliness and rebelliousness.
Arrogant, self-important, wanton, and rash,
I gave play to my satanic nature.
My transgressions haunt me; in my confessions, I cry!
How can I make up for lost time?
Verse 2
Only through judgment do I see,
only through judgment do I see
I was a hypocrite. Though I swore undying love,
I couldn’t suffer trials; I repented so much,
swearing I’d completely change, yet it was all lies.
Without practicing truth, I would be exposed.
Through ordeals I come to repent,
my corruption I come to detest.
Remorseful, I fall before God.
I’ll start anew and comfort God’s heart.
Pre-chorus
Oh God! I have hurt You so deeply.
I’m too ashamed to live in Your presence,
enjoying Your love, enjoying Your love.
Chorus
I can’t bear to look back on the things of my past,
it was all ugliness and rebelliousness.
Arrogant, self-important, wanton, and rash,
I gave play to my satanic nature.
My transgressions haunt me; in my confessions, I cry!
How can I make up for lost time?
Outro
With my whole heart I will fulfill my duty well.
I will not let You down again!
I’ll put myself in You, submit to Your rule.
I resolve to practice the truth,
accept Your judgment and cleansing,
do my duty to repay Your love for me!