The Path … (6)
It is because of God’s work that we have been brought into the present day. So, we are all the survivors in God’s management plan, and that we can be retained until the present day is a great uplifting from God. According to God’s plan, the country of the great red dragon should be destroyed, but I think that perhaps He has established another plan, or He wants to carry out another portion of His work. So until today I haven’t been able to explain it clearly—it’s as if it’s an unsolvable riddle. But overall, this group of ours has been predestined by God, and I continue to believe that God has other work in us. May we all beseech Heaven thus: “May Your will be accomplished and may You once again appear to us and not conceal Yourself so that we may see Your glory and Your countenance more clearly.” I always feel that the path that God guides us on doesn’t go straight up, but it’s a winding road that is full of potholes, and God says that the rockier the path is the more it can reveal our hearts of love, but not one of us can open up this kind of path. In My experience, I have walked many rocky, treacherous paths and I have endured great suffering; at times I have even been utterly grief-stricken to the point that I wanted to cry out, but I have walked this path until this day. I believe that this is the path led by God, so I endure the torment of all the suffering and continue on. For this is what God has ordained, so who can escape it? I do not ask to receive any blessings; all I ask is that I am able to walk the path I ought to walk according to God’s will. I do not seek to imitate others or walk the path that they walk—all I seek is that I may fulfill My devotion to walk My designated path until the end. I do not ask for the help of others; to be frank, I can’t help anyone else either. It seems that I am terribly sensitive on this matter. I don’t know what other people think. This is because I have always believed that however much an individual must suffer and however far they must walk on their path is ordained by God and that no one can really help anyone else. Perhaps a portion of our enthusiastic brothers and sisters may say that I am lacking in love. But this is just what I believe. People walk their paths relying on God’s guidance, and I believe that most of My brothers and sisters will understand My heart. I also hope that God provides us with much greater enlightenment in this aspect so that our love may become purer and our friendship may become more precious. May we not be confused on this topic, but only become clearer so that our interpersonal relationships may be established on the basis of God’s leadership.
God has worked in mainland China for a number of years, and He has paid a significant price in all people to finally get us to where we are today. I think that in order to guide everyone onto the right path, this work must begin where everyone is weakest—only this way can the first hurdle be overcome for it to continue to move forward. Isn’t that better? The Chinese nation which has been corrupted for thousands of years has continued on until today. All sorts of “viruses” continue to expand and are spreading everywhere like the plague; just looking at people’s relationships is enough to see how many viruses are in people. It’s extremely difficult for God to develop His work in such a tightly closed and virus-infected area. People’s personalities, habits, the way they do things, everything they express in their lives and their interpersonal relationships are all broken beyond belief and even their knowledge and their cultures have all been condemned by God. Not to mention the various experiences they learned from their families and society—these have all been judged in the eyes of God. This is because those who live in this land have eaten too many viruses. It seems to be business as usual for people, and they think nothing of it. Therefore, the greater the corruption of the people in a place, the more improper their interpersonal relationships will be. There is infighting in human relationships—they plot against and slaughter each other as if that place were a man-eat-man city of demons. It is incredibly difficult to carry out God’s work in this kind of place that is so terrifying, where ghosts run rampant. When I deal with people, I always plead with God without cease. This is because I am always afraid of dealing with people, and I deeply fear that I will offend others’ “dignity” with My disposition. In My heart I always fear that these unclean spirits will act recklessly, so I always beseech God to protect Me. All sorts of improper relationships can be seen between these people among us. I see all of these things and there is hatred in My heart. That is because people are always doing the “business” of humans between them and they never take God into account. I hate these people’s actions deep in My bones. What can be seen in the people in mainland China is nothing but corrupt satanic dispositions, so in God’s work in these people, it’s nearly impossible to find anything worthwhile within them; all the work is done by the Holy Spirit, and it is only that the Holy Spirit moves people more, and works in them. It’s nearly impossible to utilize those people; that is, the work of being moved by the Holy Spirit coupled with people’s cooperation cannot be done. The Holy Spirit just slogs away to move people, but even so people are just numb and insensate and have no idea what it is that God is doing. So, God’s work in mainland China is comparable to His work of creating the world. He makes all men born again and changes everything about them because there’s nothing worthwhile within these people. It’s so heartbreaking. I often make a sorrowful prayer for these people: “God, may Your great power be revealed in these people so that Your Spirit may greatly move them, and so that these numb and dull-witted sufferers may awaken, no longer sleep, and see the day of Your glory.” May we all pray in front of God and say: Oh God! May You once again take mercy on and care for us so that our hearts can fully turn to You and we are able to escape from this filthy land, stand up, and complete what You have entrusted us with. I hope that God may once again move us so that we may gain His enlightenment, and that He may have mercy on us so that our hearts are able to gradually turn to Him and He may gain us. This is the desire that we all share.
The path that we take is entirely ordained by God. Overall, I believe that I am certainly able to walk this path until the end, and this is because God always smiles upon Me, and it is as if God’s hand is always guiding Me. So, it is not diluted by anything else in My heart—I am always preoccupied with God’s work. I try My best to complete everything that God has entrusted to Me with devotion, and I absolutely do not interfere with tasks He has not allotted to Me, nor do I interfere with the work anyone else is doing. That’s because I believe that every person must walk their own path without interfering with each other. This is how I see it. Perhaps this is because of My own personality, but I hope that My brothers and sisters understand and forgive Me because I never dare to go against the decrees of My Father. I do not dare to defy the will of Heaven. Could you possibly have forgotten that “the will of Heaven cannot be defied”? Maybe some people think that I’m too selfish, but I think that I have come particularly to do a part of the work of God’s management. I have not come for interpersonal relationships. I simply can’t learn how to have good relationships with other people. But I have God’s guidance on what He has entrusted Me with, and I have the confidence and perseverance to do this work well. It’s possible that I’m too “selfish.” I wish that everyone could take the initiative to feel God’s selfless love and to cooperate with Him. Do not wait for the arrival of God’s second majesty—that isn’t good for anyone. I always think that something we should consider is this: “We must do everything possible to do what we ought to in order to satisfy God. God has entrusted each individual with something different; how should we accomplish it?” You should be aware of what the path you take actually is—it is imperative that you are clear on this. Since you are all willing to satisfy God, why don’t you first give yourself over to Him? The first time I prayed to God, I gave My heart over to Him entirely. The people around Me—parents, sisters, brothers, or colleagues—they were pushed far into the back of My mind by My determination, and it was as if they didn’t exist to Me at all. That was because My mind was always on God, His words, or His wisdom—these things were always front and center in My heart and they became the most precious thing in My heart. So for people who are full of life philosophies, I am an emotionless, cold-blooded creature. How I conduct Myself, how I do things, My every move—these all pierce their hearts. They cast strange glances at Me as if I had personally become an unsolvable riddle. People are secretly sizing Me up in their hearts—they don’t know what I’m going to do. How could I stop moving forward because of those people’s every move? Maybe they’re envious, or disgusted, or mocking—I still pray eagerly in front of God as if it were only He and I in the same world, and there was no one else. External forces are always closely oppressing Me, but the feeling of being moved by God also surges in Me. In this dilemma, I bowed down before God: “Oh God! I am never unwilling to work for Your will. In Your eyes I am honorable and regarded as fine gold, but I am unable to escape from the forces of darkness. I am willing to suffer for Your sake for a lifetime, I am willing to make Your work My own life’s work; I beg You to give Me a proper place of rest to devote Myself to You. Oh God! I am willing to offer Myself up for You. You know well man’s weakness, so why do You conceal Yourself from Me?” Right then I felt like I was a mountain lily releasing its fragrance in a gentle breeze, but no one knew it. Heaven was weeping and My heart kept crying as if I had even more pain in My heart. All forces and the siege of mankind were like a thunderbolt in a clear day. Who could understand My heart? So I came before God again and said: “Oh God! Is there no way to carry out Your work in this land of filth? Why is it that others are at ease in an environment that is supportive and free of persecution, yet cannot be considerate of Your heart? Even if I were to spread My wings, why is it that I cannot fly away? Do You not approve?” I spent several days weeping over this, but I always believed that God would comfort My sorrowful heart. From beginning to end, no one could understand My anxious mood. Perhaps it was a direct perception from God—I always have a fire under Me for His work and I barely have time to take a breath. Until this day I still pray: “Oh God! If it is Your will, may You lead Me to carry out even greater work of Yours so that it may expand throughout the entire universe, open up to every nation, every denomination in the world, so that My heart may gain a bit of peace, that I may live in the place of rest for You, and that I may work for You with no interference and I am able to quiet My heart to serve You for My lifetime.” This is the desire in My heart. Maybe My brothers and sisters will say that I’m arrogant, that I’m haughty. I acknowledge that because it’s a fact—what young people possess is simply arrogance. So I speak the truth without contravening the facts. In Me you may see all the personalities of a young person, but you can also see where I’m different from other young people—that is My quietness and My calmness. I’m not making a topic out of this; I believe that God knows Me better than I know Myself. These are words from My heart, and I hope that My brothers and sisters do not take offense. May we speak out the words in our hearts, look at each of our objects of pursuit, compare our hearts of love for God, listen to the words we whisper to God, sing out the most beautiful songs in our hearts, and express our feelings of pride so that our lives become more beautiful. Forget the past, and look toward our future. God will open up a path for us!