You Can’t Discern a Person by Their Appearance
By Yang Rui
In my heart, I always believed my father to be a good man. But one day, I unexpectedly heard that my father was expelled from the church. I was totally stunned at the time and couldn’t figure it out: Although he has a bad temper, he took great care of us sisters and never beat or scolded us. Despite our family’s struggles, he would not let us suffer no matter how much suffering he had to endure. After our whole family accepted God’s work in the last days, my father was proactive in fulfilling his duty, and often encouraged us to diligently fulfill our own duties. Though my father was sometimes a little arrogant, as long as there was a duty to fulfill, regardless of the wind and rain or the extent of the difficulty, he would find a way to complete it. How could such a good person get expelled? The situation filled my heart with resentment and conflict, and I felt the church was not treating my father fairly. Although I did not say it, I found it difficult to calm my heart, and I agonized in torment.
One day, I read the following in God’s words: “It may be that in all your years of, you have never cursed anyone or committed a bad deed, yet in your association with Christ, you cannot speak the truth, act honestly, or obey the word of Christ; in that case, I say that you are the most sinister and malicious person in the world. You may be exceptionally cordial and devoted to your relatives, friends, wife (or husband), sons and daughters, and parents, and never take advantage of others, but if you cannot be compatible and in harmony with Christ, then even if you expend your all in relief to your neighbors or take meticulous care of your father, mother, and household members, I would say that you are still wicked, and moreover one full of cunning tricks. Do not think, just because you get along with others and do a few good deeds, that you are compatible with Christ. … Do you think that doing a few good deeds can substitute for your obedience?” (“Those Who Are Incompatible With Christ Are Surely Opponents of God” in ). After reflecting on God’s words, I gradually understood: To see if a person is good or wicked, look at not whether their outward behavior is good or bad or how their relationships are with other people. Rather, look at their relationship with God, and whether they have true obedience to and fear of God, and whether they are compatible with God. Someone may have a good relationship with others, frequently help others and treat them with love, but if they can’t be compatible with God, if they don’t pursue the truth in their faith, if they adulterate their duty with their own personal motives, and if they judge and resist God when His work isn’t in line with their notions, then that person is a hypocrite. They are a crafty, two-faced evil person. With this understanding, I began to recall some expressions my father had made: While he was in his former church, my father had been a leader. After accepting God’s work in the last days, because the brothers and sisters of the church did not elect him to be a leader he was deeply dissatisfied. In order to regain the “throne” of being a leader, he started to actively present himself well to others. He did whatever the church arranged for him to do. Later, when his wish was not realized, he showed his true colors, always acting extremely conceited in the church, never listening to anyone, and always forcing people to listen to him no matter what. If he saw a worker who did not fit his liking, he would judge, belittle, and undermine them. Isn’t this the behavior of the wicked? Just as God said: “The standard by which man judges man is based on his behavior; one whose conduct is good is a righteous person, and one whose conduct is abominable is wicked. The standard by which God judges man is based on whether one’s essence obeys Him; one who obeys God is a righteous person, and one who does not is an enemy and a wicked person, regardless of whether this person’s behavior is good or bad, and regardless of whether this person’s speech is correct or incorrect” (“God and Man Will Enter Into Rest Together” in The Word Appears in the Flesh). When compared against God’s words, my father’s behavior was not obeying God’s orchestrations and arrangements, but was causing disruptions to the church. Such an essence is one that resists God and belongs to an evil person. I used to think my father was a good person, but this was all because my outlook had not been based on God’s words and I had always been deceived and fooled by how he appeared to be on the outside; I hadn’t thoroughly understood my father’s nature and essence. From God’s words, I came to understand that my father caring about me and looking after me in all things, and being able to fulfill his duty, were all external behavior and were external good deeds. However, his external good deeds did not equate to obeying God, and moreover could not be called righteous. Only someone who truly believes in God and pursues the truth, who can be obedient no matter what kind of environment they encounter, and who is happy to accept and chastisement is someone who is truly obedient to God. Only that is a good person who can be saved by God. My father only had himself to blame for being expelled from the church. It was because of his terrible nature and he had no one else to blame. Moreover, this was a manifestation of God’s righteous disposition.
After going through this I understood some truths related to discernment and learned how to have discernment on people. I also saw that God’s disposition is holy and righteous, and will tolerate no offense. I particularly realized that without the truth it’s impossible to really see through the people, events, and things around me. From now on, no matter what befalls me, I will seek the truth more in God’s words and look at things according to God’s words. Even if I cannot thoroughly understand the things God does, I believe all that He does is right. I will no longer analyze and scrutinize them from their outward appearances. I will stand on the side of the truth, constantly cautioning myself to stand witness for God.
The Secret Held Deep Within My Heart
Thank God for this enlightenment, which has lifted me out of blindness. If not, I would still be hoodwinked by my own falsity—careening forth with blind ambition toward my own imminent demise. How incredibly scary! In the process, I also realized that in replacing me, God was protecting me and granting me salvation.
I See the Path to Knowing God
Just when I was sad and disappointed over this and losing my confidence in God, His words enlightened me: “Knowing God must be done through reading God’s word and understanding God’s word. Some people say: ‘I haven’t seen God incarnate, so how can I know God?’ God’s word is actually an expression of God’s disposition. From God’s word you can see God’s love for mankind, His salvation of mankind, and the way He saves them … because God’s word is expressed by God as opposed to God using man to write it out” (“Knowledge of the Incarnation” in Records of Christ’s Talks).
After Losing My Status
Every time I saw or heard of someone having been replaced and them feeling down, weak or sulky, and not wanting to follow anymore, then I looked down on them. I thought it was nothing more than different people having different functions within the church, that there was no distinction between high or low, that we were all God’s creations and there was nothing to feel down about.
Experiencing God’s Special Love
Today’s replacement is truly how You are saving me. Your chastising love has conquered my heart. I thank You from my heart for saving me and protecting me. I thank You more so for causing me to truly experience through Your revelation that Your righteous disposition cannot tolerate offense.