I

Oh God! Your love is so precious and beautiful; how could I be willing to live in the hands of the evil one? Was I not created by You? How could I live under the power of Satan? I would rather live amid Your chastisement than live under the power of the evil one. I am willing to offer up my body and heart to Your judgment and chastisement as long as I can be purified, and can devote my all to You, because I detest Satan, and am unwilling to live under its power. Through Your judgment of me, You show forth Your righteous disposition; I'm fully willing, and have not the slightest complaint. As long as I'm able to fulfill the duty of a created being, I'm willing that my entire life be accompanied by Your judgment, and thereby come to know Your righteous disposition, and rid myself of the influence of the evil one.

II

Even though I live amid Your chastisement, and amid Your judgment, no matter how painful it may be, still I'm unwilling to live under Satan's power, still I'm unwilling to live under Satan's trickery. I feel joy living amid Your curses, and feel pain living amid Satan's blessings. I love You while living amid Your judgment, and this fills my heart with great joy. Your chastisement and judgment is righteousness and holiness; it is in order to cleanse me, and even more, it is to save me. I would rather live my entire life amid Your judgment, receiving Your care, than live under Satan's power for a single moment. I wish to be cleansed by You; even if I have to suffer, I'm unwilling to be exploited and duped by Satan.

III

I, this created being, should be used by You, possessed by You; I should also be judged by You, and chastised by You, even cursed by You. My heart is gladdened when You're willing to bless me, for I have seen Your love. You are the Creator, and I am a created being: I shouldn't betray You and live under Satan's power, nor should I be exploited by Satan. I should be Your horse, or ox, instead of living for Satan. I'd rather live amid Your chastisement, without fleshly bliss; even if I were to lose Your grace, I would still gain pleasure from Your chastisement and judgment. This is Your best blessing, Your greatest grace.

from The Word, Vol. 1. The Appearance and Work of God. The Experiences of Peter: His Knowledge of Chastisement and Judgment