Seeing Through the CCP’s Lies, God’s Love Draws Me Back to Him
By Kemu, South Korea
“I’m telling you one more time—don’t keep talking to me about that God stuff, and you’re not allowed to have anything to do with those religious people anymore. If I see that you’ve been in touch with them again, I’ll smash your phone to pieces!”
“Why? Why are you standing in the way of my faith?” My wife asked me this, her face full of confusion.
“Why?! It’s for your own good and the good of our family. Don’t you know that the CCP is seriously cracking down on and suppressing The Church of Almighty God? Don’t you know about the May 28 Zhaoyuan Case in 2014? It says online that Zhang Lidong, the main offender in the case, was a member of The Church of Almighty God. If you hang out with those people aren’t you just putting yourself into the lion’s mouth?”
She responded resolutely, “Zhang Lidong and those others weren’t with The Church of Almighty God—you just can’t believe that stuff they say online. I’ve been in contact with brothers and sisters from The Church of Almighty God for two or three months and what I’ve seen is that they’re all upstanding people who are kind and sincere toward others. They help each other out whenever anyone has difficulties. It’s not like what they say online at all.”
I was incensed and remained unconvinced. “Go online and see for yourself, then you’ll know whether I’m right or not.”
My wife then led me over to a seat and said, “You’re the sort of person who thinks things through. You have to approach this reasonably and speak according to the facts—you can’t just listen to one side of the story! Every major media outlet in China is just a mouthpiece for the CCP; they’re just tools for the Party to deceive the people. What kind of credibility do their reports have? Don’t you remember the Tiananmen Square protests of 1989? The students in Tiananmen Square were protesting against corruption and advocating for democratic freedoms, but the CCP sought out some unknown people and had them infiltrate the students’ ranks, then had them start to hit, smash, loot, burn, and overturn military vehicles. They created a lot of chaos, and then they planted those crimes onto the students. After that the CCP used media like TV and radio to flood the airwaves with their reports, slandering those students as counterrevolutionary rioters, and then pulverized thousands of living and breathing students with their tanks. Anyone who knows about the history of the CCP knows that they’ve always struck down righteousness, that they don’t tolerate the existence of any groups or individuals that have different political views or opinions. In order to achieve a dictatorship they’ve always struck down and condemned those groups or people, even suppressing them or wiping them out. Every time the CCP has violently suppressed a religious faith, a movement for democratic rights, or ethnic minority protests, they first start by fabricating false cases, and then they create a huge public outcry, stirring up the people, and then they violently suppress them. That’s a fact. The May 28 Zhaoyuan Case is also the CCP framing The Church of Almighty God—they carefully concocted yet another false case.”
I couldn’t refute what she had said at all, and thought to myself, “She’s known some of the family members of victims of the Tiananmen Square protests and knows the inside story. Everything she’s said is true. But still, even if that Zhaoyuan incident has nothing to do with The Church of Almighty God, I’ve never been in contact with their members and I don’t know what sort of church it is. We live in such a troubled world now—what if she’s conned?” So, I told her again that she wasn’t allowed to have contact with anyone from The Church of Almighty God, slamming the door on my way out and leaving her there in tears.
It was a particularly dark night with no moonlight and no stars. I felt really awful as I walked along the road. I thought of our ten years of marriage—from meeting, to falling in love, to getting married, we had been through a lot, but no matter what we faced we had talked things through and supported each other. We’d never had any huge battles. Yet, I had just really laid into her for her faith—I felt I shouldn’t treat her that way. But then again, it said online that The Church of Almighty God is no good, so not letting her practice her faith was better for her. Why couldn’t she understand me? At that moment I felt incredibly tired and irritated. I got out my phone and a wonderful photo of our happy family flashed in front of my eyes—our daughter’s sweet smile momentarily dissolved my feeling of fatigue. I thought of how I’m the backbone of the family and that preventing my wife from practicing her faith was protecting her and was for the good of our family, so I had to hold firm to my stance.
Over the period of time that followed, I was afraid of damaging my wife’s feelings for me and thus didn’t dare start any major conflicts, so I just told her not to talk about anything having to do with God. Even though we seemed to get along normally on the surface, there was already a chasm opening up between us.
One day just as I had walked in the door after getting off work I heard the sound of cheerful music wafting out from the bedroom, plus bursts of happy laughter from my wife and daughter. Curiously, I thought, “Hm? I haven’t heard such a joyful sound at home in so long. Ever since my wife came to South Korea, she’s never really gotten used to the environment here because it’s a different lifestyle and language. In particular, she left behind her elderly mother and a job that she loved, and she doesn’t have any relatives or friends by her side—she often sits alone and cries. I’ve seen my her looking pained and upset but have never known how to comfort her, so what kind of song could be bringing her so much happiness now?” I very quietly opened the door and saw a dance and song video produced by The Church of Almighty God, “The True Love of God.” Six young women were joyfully dancing and singing with such feeling, and their faces brimming with such joyful smiles were particularly moving. I was immediately drawn in. I was full of curiosity, thinking, “What sort of church is this, and what kind of group of people is this? Why is it that their songs and dances are so infectious and so soothing? If they really were bad people, how could they have such kind, genuine smiles?”
Seeing me, my daughter said happily, “Dad, isn’t this a nice song? Mom and I really like it. Sing and dance with us!” I picked her up in an embrace and kissed her little face, then said indulgently, “Sweetheart, I like energetic, powerful songs and dances.” She shook her head and thought for a moment. “Dad, you like tap dancing, right? Mom, put on that really exciting song for him.” I couldn’t bear to interrupt her—I figured I’d watch it for just a little bit even if it was from The Church of Almighty God—these days this kind of harmonious atmosphere was hard to come by in our home. Holding my daughter, I sat next to my wife and started watching. The dance and song video “God Has Brought His Glory to the East” was powerful and energetic with a delightful rhythm. There was a really exciting spirit expressed through the dancing; I’ve always loved dance, so I was really drawn in. Seeing how engaged I was, my wife said excitedly, “These songs and dances have all been arranged and recorded by brothers and sisters with The Church of Almighty God. None of them are professionals.” I couldn’t help but seriously reflect on this. “How could people without professional training dance so incredibly well?” Smiling, she said, “It’s amazing! Without God’s own work and guidance, would non-professionals be able to dance like that? You’d be even more surprised if you saw the films that they’ve made. The Church of Almighty God possesses the work of the Holy Spirit—it has God’s blessing. That’s why their dances and films are so well made, and on top of that, all the truths communicated in their films are beneficial for human beings. All that negative propaganda online is just the CCP spreading lies about The Church of Almighty God. They’re not at all true. The reason they’re spreading these lies is so that everyone will become hostile to The Church of Almighty God and won’t dare to look into God’s work of the last days. Then they’ll lose God’s salvation.”
Hearing what she said and seeing the glowing look on her face, I became even more curious. I thought about how since she had started believing in Almighty God she had recovered from her depression from homesickness and missing her mom. I also saw that she had become more patient with our daughter and no longer lost her temper; she had also started to take care of me incredibly well. Could it really be that Almighty God had changed my wife? Was The Church of Almighty God really as great as she said? As I thought through all of this my heart felt tied up in knots—I didn’t know if I should let her continue practicing her faith. After a bout of this internal struggle, I decided to go check it out for myself. If it wasn’t like what they said online, I wouldn’t stand in her way anymore.
Over the weekend when I was free from work, I approached my wife and told her that I wanted to go have a look at The Church of Almighty God—she was both surprised and pleased. Once we got there the brothers and sisters received us warmly, and I felt from their words, mannerisms, and how they interacted with others that they were kind and sincere. My sense of guardedness gradually relaxed. Then, a sister told everyone excitedly, “Brothers and sisters, the musical, Xiaozhen’s Story won an international award!” I asked out of curiosity, “Can I watch it?” They all voiced their agreement in unison and started playing the musical. Xiaozhen’s ups and downs in the story really touched my heart and I thought of how I myself was another “Xiaozhen.” I drifted through society when I was little because of a tumultuous family situation, suffering all sorts of bullying and humiliation and others’ coldness just to get by. And now I was struggling, working hard to make a living and had gone through all sorts of things, sweet and bitter. I had suffered a lot through ups and downs over the years, and I felt tired and sad, but in front of my wife and friends I acted strong. Who could really know the pain in my heart? Toward the end of the musical this song was sung: “The Almighty has mercy on these people who have suffered deeply; at the same time, He is fed up with these people who lack consciousness, as He has had to wait too long for an answer from humanity. He wishes to seek, to seek your heart and your spirit, to bring you water and food and to awaken you, that you may no longer be thirsty and hungry. When you are weary and when you begin to feel something of the bleak desolation of this world, do not be lost, do not cry. Almighty God, the Watcher, will embrace your arrival at any time” (“God Is Seeking Your Heart and Your Spirit” in Follow the Lamb and Sing New Songs). Every line of the song warmed my lost, suffering soul, and every note sung felt like a mother stretching out her hand to her long-lost child. What I felt was the call of love—I was incredibly moved. I couldn’t stop the tears flowing down my face as the musical ended. It was the first time I had cried in front of so many people and I felt a bit awkward, so I quickly and quietly turned my head to wipe away the tears. I exclaimed sincerely, “That’s such a wonderful musical!” I started clapping for Xiaozhen’s Story.
My wife looked at me and said to me happily and with great emotion, “Your heart being touched by Xiaozhen’s Story was from God moving you! I know that the May 28 Zhaoyuan Case had an impact on you and that you’ve had a lot of misunderstandings about Almighty God’s work of the last days. I also know that you’re concerned for my and our daughter’s safety, so today we can look and see what really happened with that case.”
The brothers and sisters then played a video for me, The Truth Exposed Behind the May 28 Zhaoyuan Case. It revealed several major suspicious aspects of the case and then dissected them layer by layer. I was really engrossed in it and did my own analysis of the case along with the video to ferret out the truth, and the furrow in my brow gradually relaxed as the video went on. As I saw layer after layer of the lies exposed I let out a long breath. I realized that the May 28 Zhaoyuan Case was single-handedly concocted by the CCP to stifle religious beliefs and eradicate The Church of Almighty God. The offenders in the case, Zhang Lidong, Zhang Fan and others, denied with their own mouths that they were members of The Church of Almighty God, and said that they were completely unaffiliated with the church. But the CCP completely disregarded the suspects’ testimonies and flagrantly went against the facts, insisting that was done by people with The Church of Almighty God. What was even more outlandish was that even without a court trial or verdict, the CCP didn’t wait to publicly, definitively plant the case on The Church of Almighty God through TV and Internet media, and that was all to create a public uproar to suppress it and wipe it out. The CCP framed the church and created that kind of false case so that it could start madly suppressing and arresting Christians with the church without a hitch. It’s just like how they suppressed the June 4 students’ movement in 1989—the CCP first fabricated rumors to portray the students’ patriotic movement as revolutionary violence, and then they started carrying out arrests and murdering people. Faced with the facts, I finally saw with complete clarity that the CCP’s tactic for eradicating any dissenters has been to first fabricate rumors and distort the facts, then frame them, and then violently suppress them. Turning the truth on its head and distorting reality and framing The Church of Almighty God so that the people, who don’t know the truth, are taken in by their lies and will misunderstand the church is detestable! But something I still didn’t understand was that the brothers and sisters in The Church of Almighty God are upright people who are nothing like they say online, so why would the CCP so madly persecute the church and go to great pains to plant that murder case on The Church of Almighty God, and arrest its members? What was really going on?
I shared this confusion of mine and a sister responded, “Let’s first read a passage from God’s words. ‘Satan wins its fame through deceiving the public. It often establishes itself as a vanguard and role model of righteousness. Under the banner of safeguarding righteousness, it harms man, devours their souls, and uses all sorts of means to benumb, deceive and incite man. Its goal is to make man approve of and follow along with its evil conduct, to make man join it in opposing God’s authority and sovereignty. However, when one grows wise to its schemes, plotting and vile features and does not wish to continue to be trampled upon and fooled by it or to continue slaving away for it, or to be punished and destroyed together with it, Satan changes its previously saintly features and tears off its false mask to reveal its true evil, vicious, ugly and savage face. It would love nothing more than to exterminate all those who refuse to follow it and those who oppose its evil forces. … The reason why Satan is exasperated and furious is thus: Its unspeakable schemes have been exposed; its plots are not easily gotten away with; its wild ambition and desire to replace God and act as God have been struck and blocked; its goal of controlling all of humanity has now come to nothing and can never be achieved’” (“God Himself, the Unique II” in The Word Appears in the Flesh).
After reading God’s words, she shared this fellowship: “God’s words expose the root of Satan opposing God and harming mankind. If we compare this with the CCP’s actions in opposition to God and its persecution of Christians, we can clearly see that it is the embodiment of Satan, the devil, and it is the satanic regime that most hates the truth and resists God. The CCP absolutely will not allow people to have faith and take the right path in its efforts to establish China as a zone of atheism—it wants to eradicate all religious beliefs. This is particularly true in the last days—Almighty God incarnate has appeared and is working in China, expressing truths to bring light to mankind. People from all denominations who genuinely believe in God and love the truth can read Almighty God’s words and see that they are the truth, and they are accepting His work of the last days one after another. Many people have understood the truth from reading God’s words and have learned how to discern between good and evil, thus clearly seeing the CCP’s evil essence and becoming willing to reject it. They are seeking the truth and taking the right path in life. Seeing that more and more people are gaining faith in God and following Him, the CCP’s eyes are burning with rage. They vainly hope to drag people back into their camp so they can continue to be the CCP’s slaves, to be trampled upon by them. To this end, the CCP madly persecutes and suppresses The Church of Almighty God, not only fabricating lies to frame and slander it, but also employing all sorts of despicable tactics. They’ve issued confidential documents many times to mobilize huge numbers of armed police and armed forces to madly arrest and persecute Christians with The Church of Almighty God on a national scale in a deluded attempt to stop the spread of God’s gospel work and completely eliminate The Church of Almighty God. Particularly for the last few years, all sorts of the church’s gospel films and videos have been uploaded to the Internet one after another and God’s gospel of the kingdom has been spreading across the globe like wildfire. The CCP has a guilty conscience, knowing that since coming to power, it has committed countless murders and done all manner of evil; its blood debt from persecuting Christians is heavy. It’s afraid that people all over the world will accept God’s work, understand the truth, clearly see its evil countenance and then reject it, which would then leave it without any footing in the world. Then its wild ambitions to control all of humanity and to act as a god would be shattered. This is why the CCP’s persecution of The Church of Almighty God has escalated, and why it meticulously crafted the May 28 Zhaoyuan Case in order to frame the church, attempting to rile up and confuse those who don’t know the truth so that they hate God and The Church of Almighty God, and do evil along with the Chinese Communist Party. We can see from this that the CCP is running counter to right principles and going against Heaven; it detests God and hates the truth. It’s an enemy of God—it’s a demon that opposes God. However, God is almighty and His wisdom is carried out based on Satan’s trickery. The CCP’s ugly countenance is exposed to the light through its mad opposition and oppression, and God’s chosen people can see its evil, reactionary nature even more clearly. They gain discernment over its despicable and evil nature, their will to follow God becomes even firmer, and they’d rather give up their very lives than stop following God. This shows that no matter how savage the CCP is, it cannot stop people from following God, and it particularly cannot stop God’s work.”
After hearing Almighty God’s words and this sister’s fellowship, I understood that the CCP persecutes The Church of Almighty God because its essence is that of hating the truth and being an enemy to God. It wants to control the people, to have people firmly in its grasp, but the truths expressed by Almighty God go deep into people’s hearts. The CCP certainly wouldn’t be willing for the people to all go with God, so it does everything it can to fabricate rumors and concoct false cases, fostering public outrage in order to persecute The Church of Almighty God. That’s how the May 28 Zhaoyuan Case came about. My doubts about The Church of Almighty God were dispelled once I had understood the truth. However, I still had a concern: Since the CCP is so oppressive of the church, would my wife be safe?
The brothers and sisters then played a film for me, The Lies of Communism. There was a passage of God’s words in it that really touched my heart. “We trust that no country or power can stand in the way of what God wishes to achieve. Those that obstruct God’s work, resist the word of God, disturb and impair the plan of God shall ultimately be punished by God. He who defies the work of God shall be sent to hell; any country that defies the work of God shall be destroyed; any nation that rises up to oppose the work of God shall be wiped from this earth, and shall cease to exist” (“God Presides Over the Fate of All Mankind” in The Word Appears in the Flesh). I could feel God’s authority and majesty from these words of His. None of Satan’s evil forces and no people can possibly hinder God’s work. Although those in the CCP are racking their brains to slander and condemn The Church of Almighty God, even diabolically arresting and persecuting its brothers and sisters, they still persist in believing in and following God, and the gospel films, choral works, and dance and song videos they produce are constantly being released online, totally unhindered. This truly showed me that God is so almighty and no force can possibly stop His work. With my wife believing in God, He is her backup force, so there’s nothing for me to worry about. After understanding all of that the worries and misgivings in my heart all disappeared. Smiling, I said to my wife, “It’s right for you to believe in Almighty God. I was so blind before—I mistakenly believed what I had heard and caused you to suffer so much. It was so wrong of me. From now on, I’ll fully support you in your faith.” Tears welled up in her eyes and she said with emotion, “It’s thanks to God that you’ve been able to see through the CCP’s lies and come out from the fog of confusion. This is God’s guidance and leadership!”
From that point on I started occasionally watching videos made by The Church of Almighty God with my wife, and I heard her talk about her faith. However, I still felt that faith in God was a simplistic kind of belief, and it was fine to believe in God in my heart, but I still had to keep earning a living for the family so that we could have a good life. But later after undergoing a bout of ill health I gained a completely new understanding of having belief in God.
Around dusk one evening as our family was having dinner I started to experience terrible stomach pains with huge drops of sweat running down my face. My wife quickly got me to the hospital where I was diagnosed with a burst appendix. It was a critical situation that required immediate surgery. I felt a sense of helplessness and fear that I’d never had before—if I didn’t make it, how would my wife and young daughter get by in a foreign country? Who would be there for them? Seeing what I was thinking, my wife held my hand and said, “I know what you’re worried about. God is almighty, and all things are in His hands. He has final say over whether the surgery is successful, too. We have to lean on God and no matter what comes from the surgery, we can’t blame God, but must submit to His rule and arrangements.” I nodded after hearing what she had to say. Once the door to the operating room had closed, I closed my eyes and prayed to God. “Almighty God! I’m terrified. Please give me faith so that I’m no longer afraid. I’m willing to lean on You.” I felt less afraid after praying, and an excerpt of God’s words from a film occurred to me: “Everything man has—peace and joy, blessings and personal safety—is in fact all under God’s control, and He guides and decides the fate of every individual” (“God Himself, the Unique VI” in The Word Appears in the Flesh). It’s true. God is almighty and my life is in His hands. I knew that the success of my surgery that day depended on God’s rule and arrangements, so by handing everything over to God, there was nothing for me to worry about. God’s words gave me faith; my uneasy heart was calmed and I was no longer so concerned about the surgery possibly failing. I gradually lost consciousness under the effect of the anesthetic. When I came to, the doctor told me that the surgery had been a success and I knew that it was God’s protection. I offered up my praise and thanks to God over and over.
Later, I saw these words from God: “The first thing one must understand, when one sets foot on this earth, is where human beings come from, why people are alive, who dictates human fate, who provides for and has sovereignty over human existence. These are the true assets in life, the essential basis for human survival, not learning how to provide for one’s family or how to achieve fame and wealth, not learning how to stand out from the crowd or how to live a more affluent life, much less learning how to excel and to compete successfully against others. Though the various survival skills that people spend their lives mastering can offer an abundance of material comforts, they never bring one’s heart true peace and consolation, but instead make people constantly lose their direction, have difficulty controlling themselves, miss every opportunity to learn the meaning of life; and they create an undercurrent of trouble about how to properly face death. In this way, people’s lives are ruined. The Creator treats everyone fairly, giving everyone a lifetime’s worth of opportunities to experience and know His sovereignty, yet it is only when death draws near, when the specter of death hangs over one, that one begins to see the light—and then it is too late” (“God Himself, the Unique III” in The Word Appears in the Flesh).
My heart brightened after reading God’s words and I understood that living on this earth isn’t just so we can lead mediocre lives to feed our families and be prosperous, or to be envied and looked up to by others, seeking name and profit. We are created beings and only by believing in and worshiping God, seeking and understanding the truth, achieving knowledge of God, clearly understanding that God rules over all things in our lives and that our fates are in His hands can we truly obey His rule and arrangements. That’s the only way we can conduct ourselves and be people according to His words, and that is the only way to live with meaning and value; it’s the only way to not live this life in vain. I thought back on how I had felt before that faith in God was a simplistic sort of belief, and that earning money for my family was what I should do with my life. I didn’t wake up until I had that life-threatening illness. No matter how much money we earn or how high our status is, when we fall ill those things can’t alleviate our suffering or the fear and helplessness deep in our hearts. On the brink of death, money, fame, and benefit can’t possible get our lives back or give us more time. I give thanks to God—it was He who gave me faith and strength through His words when I was faced with illness and felt so afraid and helpless. He gave me something to lean on so that I could calmly face everything that was to come. It was particularly His care and protection that allowed me to get through surgery without a hitch. Through that experience I really, truly felt that God is both real and alive, that He can be our help and support at any time, and He is also our strong backup force. What we as humans should pursue over our lives is faith, worshiping God, plus understanding and submitting to God’s rule. That is all that we need for our souls, and that is the only meaningful life that we should pursue. That experience also changed my mistaken impression that faith in God was a simplistic kind of belief and I resolved to practice my faith alongside my wife, to read God’s words, and take the path of seeking the truth and knowing God.
Brothers and sisters from The Church of Almighty God heard that I had fallen ill, so they came to visit me in the hospital. When they learned that I wouldn’t be able to work for some time and our family wouldn’t have any source of income, they helped me apply for a hardship grant plus get most of my medical expenses covered. In such a cold, indifferent society, the sincere helpfulness of the brothers and sisters really allowed me to experience the warmth of family. Over a period of time of interacting with them, I’ve seen that they are all deeply kind people who rely on God’s words in their interactions, are sincere, upright and dignified in their words and actions, and live out the humanity that Christians ought to. They’re entirely different from the people I work with—there are hardly any people like them left in the world. I feel that the words of Almighty God really can change people and guide us onto the right path. Also, this church is full of love; it brings people a sense of warmth.
I think of the past when I was blinded by the CCP’s lies and refused over and over again to seek or investigate God’s work of the last days, and even stood in the way of my wife’s faith, but God didn’t give up on my salvation. He allowed me to see through the CCP’s lies and clearly see the sinister truth behind them through the words of God and the videos the brothers and sisters shared with me. When I was concerned about the outcome of my surgery and was living in fear, God’s words enlightened and guided me, giving me faith and strength, correcting my mistaken viewpoints. When I couldn’t work after surgery, God helped and supported me through the brothers and sisters. I experienced God’s love and mercy for me as well as the authority and preciousness of His words—I have very happily accepted God’s work of the last days. Now I frequently attend gatherings with my wife and read God’s words. My heart feels full and joyous! I give thanks for God’s salvation for me!