268 May I Forever Be With God
1 You will soon return to Zion, and my heart is so saddened. There are so many words in my heart that I want to tell You but I don’t know where to start. There are so many debts to be redressed, I haven’t repaid You, and yet You are leaving. Who knew the time would fly so? Tears of remorse fall unceasingly. I enjoy so much of Your grace and my heart is distressed because I haven’t repaid You. Oh God, You are leaving—how could I willingly let You go?
2 Who could forget the events of the past? Who could forgo the attachment of old feelings? You have often gathered together with us over these many years, Your words water and supply us at all times. We reveal arrogance, hardness and rebelliousness, You prune us, deal with us, chasten and discipline us. You’ve judged and chastised us severely so many times, and thus our corruption is cleansed. You pay such a high price for us and I still don’t pursue the truth or fulfill my duty well. How I wish I could go back in time, utterly devote myself to You and satisfy You.
3 Tears fall silently over my cheeks as I know well that I cannot persuade You to stay. I’m left with regrets that have never been assuaged, my heart is filled with pain and remorse. Though the time we spent together is short, Your face and voice are engraved on my heart. I’m thinking of Your voice, longing for Your love, Your love for man is both deep and strong. The wonderful past has turned into memory, how could I not be reluctant to leave it? How could I forget Your earnest teachings? I can only bury my longing for You deep in my heart. I don’t know when I’ll meet You again, may I forever be with You.