Have you examined each of your thoughts and ideas, and your every act? Are you clear on which of these are in accord with My will and which are not? You have no ability to discern these! Why haven’t you come before Me? Is it because I won’t tell you, or is it for some other reason? You should know this! Know that those who are negligent absolutely cannot grasp My will or receive great illumination and revelation.
Have you discovered the reasons the church is unable to gain nourishment and lacks genuine fellowship? Are you aware of how many factors are because of you? I instructed you to provide life and to release My voice. Have you done these? Can you take responsibility for delaying your brothers’ and sisters’ progress in life? When you encounter issues you have been distraught rather than calm and collected. You really are ignorant! My voice should be released to the saints. Do not suppress the work of the Holy Spirit and do not delay the time for Me; none of that benefits anyone. I want you to dedicate yourself fully for Me, in body and mind, so that your every thought and idea may be for Me, that you may want what I want, think what I think, and that whatever you do may be for the sake of the kingdom today and My management, not for yourself. Only that will satisfy My heart.
Whatever I have done is not without proof. Why haven’t you emulated Me? Why haven’t you sought proof for what you do? What more do you want Me to say? I took you by the hand to teach you, but you have been unable to learn—you are so stupid! Do you want to start all over again? Don’t be disheartened. You must pull yourself together once again and dedicate yourself entirely on behalf of the shared hopes and shared wishes of the saints. Remember those words: “To those who sincerely expend for Me, I shall surely bless you greatly.”
Whatever you do you must do in an orderly way, not haphazardly. Do you really dare say you know the state of the saints like you know the back of your own hand? That shows you are lacking wisdom, that you haven’t taken this matter seriously at all, and haven’t spent any time on it. If you could truly spend all your time on that, see what your internal state would be like. You don’t seek to make subjective efforts but just look for objective reasons and do not show a shred of consideration for My will—that has hurt Me deeply! Don’t continue to go on this way! Can it be that you are not accepting the blessings I have given you?
Oh, God! Your child is in Your debt. I have not taken Your work seriously, or shown consideration for Your will, nor have I been faithful to Your exhortations. Your child wants to turn all of this around. May You not abandon me, and may You continue to carry out Your work through me. Oh, God! Do not leave Your child all by himself, but accompany me every moment. Oh, God! Your child knows You love me, but I cannot grasp Your will, I don’t know how to show consideration for Your burden, and I do not know how to fulfill what You have entrusted to me, still less do I know how to shepherd the church. You know that I am disconsolate and distressed over this. Oh, God! Please guide me at all times. Only now do I feel how much I am lacking, all too much! I simply cannot describe it. Let Your almighty hand show grace to Your child, support Your child at all times, and make Your child able to prostrate himself completely before You, no longer making his own choices, no longer having his own thoughts or ideas. Oh, God! You know that Your child wants to do everything completely for Your sake, completely for the sake of the kingdom today. You know what I am thinking and what I am doing at this moment. Oh, God! Search me Yourself. I ask only that You walk with me and stay with me in life at all times, so that Your strength will accompany my actions.