XVI. Questions and Answers on Dissecting the Essence of Paul
Question 3: Even if Brother Paul’s words are not God’s words, yet after being called by God, he spread the gospel and endured suffering for the Lord for the rest of his life. He traveled so far and worked so hard to establish the churches. He paid such a heavy price. His contributions to the church are as plain as the eye can see. His faith in the Lord and the way he suffered for the Lord are an example for all Christians. Do you not accept these facts?
Answer: How many people just read about how Paul spread the gospel and suffered in his letters but do not understand Paul’s true nature. Everyone knows that when Lord Jesus did His works, Paul was the main culprit that hated the truth and resisted Lord Jesus. This is something that Paul himself did not dare admit. Lord Jesus gave so many speeches and performed so many miracles. Why did Paul still hate and resist Jesus? Why did he fanatically persecute and hurt Lord Jesus’s disciples? This is evidence that Paul’s true nature was hatred of the truth and of God. Why did he work so hard to protect the interests of the rabbis and Pharisees? Why did he stay loyal to Judaism? This shows that his heart was only thinking of his position, not God. To increase his position, he resisted the true God and persecuted His disciples. He wanted to obtain rewards from Judaism at all costs. What kind of person is this? You know it as soon as you look at him. What was the situation that caused Paul to spread the gospel? When he was fanatically resisting and persecuting Lord Jesus’s disciples, the Lord had no choice but to appear to Paul in the sky. The Lord pierced his eyes with blinding light and made him kneel down. The Lord did not appear to Paul because he was loyal to the Lord. He appeared to him as part of a punishment; he had no choice. He was forced to sacrifice and suffer for Lord Jesus because Lord Jesus appeared before him. His objective was atonement. He saw that the Lord was too almighty, capable of blinding him and forcing him to kneel down. He was afraid that he would be punished, killed and sent to hell. That’s why he sacrificed for the Lord. If Lord Jesus did not appear to him, would he have followed the Lord or sacrificed for him? Based on what we know about his evil nature, his resistance of God, definitely not! Therefore, Paul did not really have faith in Lord Jesus. His suffering and sacrifice was not done willingly. He had no choice; he was forced.
from the movie script of Stinging Memories