Question 6: The sins you speak of were all committed before Paul was called into God’s service, but after he saw the light, he preached the Lord’s gospel everywhere. He established countless churches, and led countless people to the Lord’s salvation, and wrote so many letters to support the believers. That proves that Paul already repented. You cannot judge Paul as an enemy of the Lord Jesus based on his actions before he turned to the Lord!
Answer: After Paul saw the light, he preached for many years and wrote many letters, but that doesn’t actually prove that he truly repented. Within his letters, we don’t see any real reflection upon or even awareness of his evil deeds in resisting the Lord Jesus or arresting His disciples. He merely admitted that he was a chief sinner. He never spoke about his nature and substance, and he never dissected for what purpose and reason he resisted the Lord Jesus. There wasn’t a single word from him on those matters. Does that sound like someone who truly repented? Why did Paul answer the calling of Lord Jesus and work for Him? The truth is, he was completely unwilling. He knew that if he didn’t agree, he would be punished, and he would die. The suffering he underwent to preach the gospel was merely penance. Can a man merely paying for his sins have true repentance? Also, we can clearly see from reading Paul’s letters that within his preaching, he never exalted or testified the Lord Jesus. He never testified how the Lord Jesus saved people, supplied people, and led people, and he never testified that the Lord Jesus is the truth, the way, and the life, that He is God’s appearance, God becomes flesh to do His own work. Paul never testified to the loveliness of the Lord Jesus, and never testified to the suffering and humiliation the Lord Jesus bore to save man. He never preached of or testified to the whole truth the Lord Jesus expressed, or the words He spoke, nor did he exhort believers to obey the words of the Lord Jesus, and to follow, serve, and testify Him by the whole truth expressed by Him; nor did he fellowship about the substance of the work of the Lord Jesus and the fruits of it, or about how to follow the heavenly Father’s will to enter the kingdom of heaven. Instead he willfully explained the work of the Lord Jesus, and misinterpreted His words. Many of the things he said gravely disrupted and disturbed the work of God in the Age of Grace. Can any of that prove he truly repented? The work of Paul did not lead believers before the Lord Jesus to experience His words or understand that the Lord Jesus is the appearance of God. Instead he exalted and testified of himself, led the believers before himself, and made them worship him. Isn’t that exactly the way of the Pharisees? These facts are more than enough to prove that Paul never truly repented.
from the movie script of Stinging Memories