XVI. Questions and Answers on Dissecting the Essence of Paul
Question 6: All these things you’re talking about are sins Brother Paul committed before he accepted the Lord’s calling. However, after he was shone by the great light, he began traveling everywhere spreading the Lord’s gospel. He established so many churches and led so many people to accept the salvation of the Lord Jesus. He wrote so many letters in support of the faithful. This shows that Brother Paul had already repented. You can’t conclude that he was an enemy of the Lord Jesus based on his performance before he returned to the Lord.
Answer: It is true that Paul spread the gospel for many years and wrote many letters after receiving his calling, but that doesn’t mean he really repented. Nowhere in his letters does it ever indicate that he really reflected on and acknowledged his own evil behavior: his fanatical resistance of Lord Jesus and persecution of his disciples. He just merely acknowledged that he was a sinner. He never described his own true nature, nor did he say why he resisted Lord Jesus, what his motive was. The fact that he never addressed these things in writing means he never really repented? Why was Paul able to answer Lord jesus’s calling by working for the Lord? In reality, he had no other choice. He knew that if he didn’t respond, he’d certainly be punished, he’d face certain death. He was able to spread the gospel and suffer a bit because he wished to be absolved. How can one person truly repent just because they seek absolution? Furthermore, we can clearly see from Paul’s letters that when Paul was spreading the gospel and doing his works, he never exalted Lord Jesus or beared witness to Him. He never testified about how Lord Jesus redeemed people, supplied people with things or led people. He definitely never testified about how Lord Jesus is the truth, the path, life, the manifestation of God, God incarnate who does His works. Paul never testified about Lord Jesus’s loveable qualities, nor did he ever testify about how Lord Jesus suffered humiliation in order to save mankind. He never preached or testified about the truths that Lord Jesus once espoused or everything He said. He never encouraged his disciples to implement Lord Jesus’s words. He never told his disciples that they must accept the truths espoused by Lord Jesus in order to follow, serve and bear witness to the Lord. He definitely never told them about Lord Jesus’s works and their true effects or how people should implement the heavenly father’s will in order to enter the heavenly kingdom. Instead, he spread his own interpretations of Lord Jesus’s works and blasphemed His words. Many words that he said seriously interrupted God’s works in the Age of Grace. Does that prove he really repented? Paul’s works did not bring his disciples before the face of God. He did not allow people to experience Lord Jesus’s words or know that Lord Jesus was the manifestation of God. Instead, he exalted himself and beared witness to himself. He brought his believers before his own face and made them revere him. Is this not the same path the Pharisees walked down? These facts are enough to prove that Paul never truly repented.
from the movie script of Stinging Memories